Feb 6th

Today is not Feb 6th.. it’s the 8th. I wanted to make an entry that day but I didn’t have time. So here I am 2 days later. I’ve been all in my head this week. M through Th was ok but Fri really took me out. I was tempted to call out from work early but thankfully I didn’t. I don’t have any more paid time off so it wouldn’t make sense to do that. I filled in for new hire training on Fri morning and usually I’m great at it. But for whatever reason my head was in a fog and I feel like I did a bad job that day. I’m filling in for training again on Mon so we’ll see how that goes. I’m making some efforts to have myself mentally prepared for that morning. Hopefully all goes well. I also found out we are getting some new clients (kiddos) at work starting Mon and I am with one of them for the whole week. I’m always great with new kiddos so I hope I am able to maintain that. I’ve just felt really off my game at work over the past 2 months. I’m dealing with trying to process a lot of emotional trauma. And even though it’s not new trauma, it still feels fresh at times. I’m working on it.. I’m working on it.

In the mean time, I am still casually checking in on dating apps. Every time I visit one, it’s so hard to take it seriously. But I started messaging this guy sometime last week and he’s pretty cool. He’s a veteran, writer, and motivational speaker. We’ve been texting every day and I’m going to meet him tomorrow in person. We’ve already had a video call so at least I know he’s real! I’m not sure if this will go anywhere but I’m keeping an open mind. We’ve talked about a lot of deep stuff already and so far he’s handled my truths really well. I’m excited to see how it goes. Anyway, I just wanted to give and update since it’s been a while since my last entry. See ya next time <3