"That Girl"

October 20, 2006

1627 Things are bad.

I have so much to say. So much and at the same time, nothing.

I have no energy, no words, no time.

In the middle of the night on Thursday morning the medical team called my daddy at his home in Chicago. They were taking my mommy back in to surgery. (This operation was something like the 5th or 6th one since August.) At 2:30 in the morning my daddy got in his car and started the drive back up to Madison. He arrived just as they were bringing her to Recovery.

On Thursday afternoon the doctors told my dad to get the family to Madison asap. My brother drove straight from work. I took off as soon as my in-laws arrived at our house to take care of Gus.

My mommy is in Intensive Care. She’s in Critical Condition and they weren’t even sure she’d make it through those first 12-24 post-operative hours. Things are pretty grim. They haven’t been this bad for her in a very long time.

The same phrase keeps running through my mind… "I’m just not ready".

I’m not ready to lose my mommy.

I’m not ready.

I’m not ready for my children not know who their grandma is/was.

I’m not ready.

God, You know my heart and mind. I’m not ready.

I’m not ready.

bessabeth

October 21, 2006

oh my goodness. your whole family is in my thoughts & prayers. ::hug::

kiki

Love you sweetie and thinking of you.

Oh, honey. I am so sorry.

Nicole

*hugs*

Saturnine

Thinking of you and your family. *hugs*

You and your whole family will be in my thoughts and prayers this week. *hugs*

so sorry to hear about this. i hope He listens.

Amidala

(-_-,)

Calicakes

PrissyGirl

I can’t imagine. I’m thinking of you all & praying. Losing B’s dad (in January & Ryan was born in May) was so horrible for B & I hope that this will not be the outcome for you. I have always envyed the relationship you have w/ your Mommy–the love & the kindness is amazing to me. Love you-

NicoleAlison

Darling, I know I haven’t noted much but I’ve been here. I’ve read your words. I’m here for you, you are in my thoughts every moment. I will continue to hold you in my thoughts and if you need anything please let me know. I’ve been there, I’ve faced this. We are never prepared, we are never ready. I stand with a very large group of people who will be waiting when you are ready to lean on us. Be with your family, hold them close to you. They are the strength you need right now.

A'ishah

*hugs* Oh, MB…… *tears* I don’t even know what to say. I don’t think anyone can EVER be ready….

The1Chick

October 22, 2006

I know…. 🙁 It’s incredibly difficult but you will make it. Lots of ++ thoughts from me. Love,

gemidevi

My prayers are with you and your family….

Break On Through.

We are sending you big huge hugs here. Please let us know if we can help out in anyway, with anything!!

my thoughts and prayers are with you, TG.

Libby

How could you ever be ready? My prayers are with you, sweetie.

Girl Named Sandoz

im so sorry. *huge hug*

Misguided Angel

October 23, 2006

I’m so sorry, MB. *HUGS*

Andaluna

Prayers

Bitter Pill

I’m so sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you.

fortysomething

I’m so sorry. I will pray very hard that she will recover.

beth

In Transit

I’m sending prayers and good thoughts in your direction. It’s not much, but … something?

Oh, sweetie, I just read your hubby’s updates on her surgeries on condition. I am so sorry for what has happened to your mommy. I will pray for her right now and continue to pray. If there is anything I can do, please note me. You are all in my thoughts and will be in my prayers continually. I can’t imagine how much pain you ar all in. God bless you, sweetie. (HUGE HUGS)

jmelyn

I want you to know I’m praying for you. It is so, so tough to watch a parent suffer. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Precious Peach

You poor thing! I wish I could give you a hug and let you cry on my shoulder.

.imp.

October 24, 2006

(((TG)))

**prayers quickly going to heaven**

Katie Scarlett

October 25, 2006

I will say a prayer for you and your mum.