1728 Not feeling too sparkly

Saucy Scale: 7

Out of the mouths of babes…

Yesterday we were laying down for our afternoon siesta (don’t you dare call my house from 2-5pm or I will chew you a new one) as usual.  Mattson in his crib and Mama & Gusser in my bed.  Gus & I read our 1 story and curled up sharing his beloved bedtime friend "Mr. Soft" (one of those plush stuffed animal heads attached to a blanket "body").  He turned to me and said, "you are the bestest mommy in the whooooole world!" which reduced me to a hormonal bag of tears.  Such a sweet boy.

Last night I was feeling "less-pukey" enough to make a much needed grocery store trip.  TBU put the boys to bed before my return.  While I checked my email, I could hear Mattson "blowing raspberries" and we weren’t entirely sure if Gusser was blowing raspberries in response or not (something we’ve been attempting to train him NOT to do, incidently).  After several minutes of rather explosive raspberries, we heard Gus yell, "Cut it out, Mattson!"  it was the cutest most exasperated little voice.  I started laughing hysterically at my babies.  I haven’t laughed that hard in a very long time.

Each of my pregnancies has affected me differently.  I can’t really recall any morning sickness with Gus.  I was EXHAUSTED and I needed my afternoon nap in order to function, but not really nauseated.

I don’t remember much of the first & second trimester when pregnant with Mattson.  My own mommy was so very very sick and I didn’t have time to dwell.  I know I hated sitting in those chairs and I needed naps when I’d visit her, but I don’t remember being sick until the third trimester – once my mommy had passed away.

With Baby U3.0, I have been sick all day every day.  I’m only 8 weeks into this journey, & I’m having a hard time coping, quite frankly.  It is really hard to be a pleasant & effective mama when you feel this bad. 

• I’m exhausted – that afternoon nap is NOT an optional thing for me.  I can’t make it thru the afternoon or evening if I haven’t had my nap.  
• I cannot deal with raw meats – dinner is an awful & dreaded task.  
• Any random icky smell can send me reeling.  Including you folks with bad breath.  (Is it too much to ask that you pop a mint once in awhile?)
• If I stay up past my bedtime, I am SHOT the next day.  Sicker & more tired than normal.
• If I have a bad food experience, I am ruined forever.  I can still remember every detail of the burrito that "didn’t sit well with my tummy" when preggers with Mattson.  Last Friday night I met a friend in Chinatown for an "authentic Chinese dinner" – what the hell was I thinking?  I want to hurl just thinking of some of the things that went around the table.
• I go to bed with a sinus headache.  I wake up with up with another sinus headache.  I can’t take anything stronger than regular strength tylenol.  I can’t even take that on an empty morning stomach.
• It’s a vicious cycle – which came first?  The headache, the "regular" nausea which makes me not want to eat, or the really bad nausea from not eating anything?
• Mattson is so heavy that if I hold him (while standing) for any length of time my ab muscles ache and I feel nauseated.
• I fear that I am warping my oldest child.  He hears me use my "tummy ache" as an excuse all day long.  Yesterday morning I’m pretty sure he saw me puking into his sand bucket.  Good times.

Do you want to know what does sound kind of "ok" to eat?  SALAMI.  Which is a no-no for the pregnant-types.  Cold cuts can breed lysteria which can cause miscarriages.

And I still have a chin full of cystic acne.  Which, by the way, cannot be treated using the leading acne medications such as salicylic acid or benzoil peroxide – unless you’d like a child with birth defects.  Great to know, since I just purchased a tube of acne cream & have been applying it liberally for about 4 weeks now.  I’m going to give birth to a three-toed sloth.

I’ve been checking my blood sugars and trying to make "wiser" food choices so that I can once again avoid the gestational diabetes.  That’s not always easy.  When you’ve been nauseated all day long & then suddenly have an intense craving for a couple Krispy Kremes…you tend to give in to the craving.  I try to wait it out…if the craving is still strong & present hours or days later…I eat the thing. 

Like right now…I have been craving sloppy joes for a couple days.  I bought all the stuff, but I can’t seem to get past the raw hamburger portion of the recipe.  If anyone would like to come over and make them for me, I’d appreciate it.

I was reading the local paper this morning and found a truly disturbing obituary.  A 30 year old woman and her newborn son both died due to complications of childbirth.  There was no additional info about the circumstances of their situation.  Oh yeah, except the fact that her delivery was at the same hospital where Mattson and Baby U3.0 were/will be born.  Now I get to ponder that for the next 7 months. 

Well, that’s aboutall the whining & moaning for the moment.  Come back, I’m sure I can muster up some more later on.

5 Things That Make Me Happy:

1. I’m supposed to meet some of my mommy’s friends for lunch today.  I’m not really in the mood & not sure if the menu will sound yummy or not.
2. Tonight I’m getting my shaggy old eyebrows waxed
3. Right here – at this moment…I’m not nauseous.
4. Gusser just took himself potty, God love him!
5. I somehow managed to get the 3 of us dressed in time for our lunchdate!