And I awake.

Well, okay. That wasn’t perfect sleep, but it was something. Didn’t help when I woke up at 1 AM with a cough from hell. I got up and took some Robo, and then went back to sleep. I awoke around 3:50 and realized I was done sleeping. By “done”, I mean, I felt like I couldn’t sleep anymore. I know my body. That feeling I used to get during the day when I was nocturnal? That feeling said “CRAWL INTO A BALL AND ENJOY THE WARMTH. STAY YOUR ASS IN BED.” This feeling felt like, “Congratulations, you’ve woken up the next day before any living creature ever has to think about waking up.”

When I have time on my side, I like rolling around in bed and just enjoying the fact that I’m rested. That familiar grapple to stay in bed wasn’t there. Felt nice.

I’m thinking the nap I had yesterday caused this. That and the fact that my body isn’t used to sleeping at night. My goal is to simply GOTO bed at the same time or earlier. I fell asleep last night. It’s going to be at least 18 hours before I consider sleeping, so I should be nice and tired by then. Or, at least, be able to fall asleep.

It’s different to wake up at 4 AM, than it is to GOTO bed at 4 AM. Before, I felt like I could stay awake forever. And now. I feel like nobody else in the entire world is awake. Even though that’s completely not true at all. Just. That feeling we’d get as kids if we woke up at 3 AM. Middle of the damn night. It does feel like night. But not the-night-before. It feels like the sun will come up in a few hours. I’ll try and wait until then to have breakfast. Have my meals make sense.

My mom asked me last night how much hard drive cost. I told her, depending on what you get, maybe $60 – $100. Then she said, “Oh, well, I know you can get an entire one for five hundred dollars.” My mom isn’t good with words anymore. She meant computer.

I’m puzzled. Is there a plot afoot? I have a simple feeling about computers: Might as well wait so you can get more for less. There’s no point in wasting actual dollars on something that I’d replace anyway. I have basic specs for specific reasons. Perhaps I’ll explain that to my parents. Of course, I personally don’t think I deserve a computer. At all. I’ve been such a brat.

Ick, that cough is acting up again. Eh, better than a sore throat. Sore throats.. hurt. And you can usually take shit to make a cough go away. If this robo doesn’t kick in, I’m taking a shot of liquor. It’s worked in the past.

Hmm. I better go blow my nose. I just had to jinx myself by thinking I was having an easy cold.