Friends.

A while ago, Kivudet told me something I disagreed with, or just didn’t understand. He said that he felt most self-conscience around his closest friends, and the most free with strangers. Naturally, I refuted this, saying that we should be more comfortable with our friends than with strangers.

Of course, that’s more ideological than anything else. I get it now. Online, I feel more comfortable talking to people I’ve never talked to before than people I’ve been friends with for years. It’s just like Kivudet said, I’m more concerned with what my friends think of me than what strangers think of me. Yes, ideally, we should all be perfectly comfortable with our friends. But, that isn’t always the case. Sometimes, I have to just suck it up and trust my friends won’t think anything stupid about me.

I know this only from an online point of view. I like talking to strangers because they know nothing about me. I control everything they know about me. This isn’t even me pretending to be Bob Dole. If I do something stupid, I can justify it and the stranger has no choice but to believe me, because she has no other information on me. I say she because I just don’t talk to random guys online. They’re creepy? *shrugs* I hate repeating myself. Most of my friends have heard all my stories before. Meeting people online lets me share all my stupid stories anew, once again, for the first time. Each time I tell them, I get better at it.

Familiarity breeds comtempt? *shrugs* I think I’ve said all I needed to say. Well. I do know that whenever something serious is going on, I’ll want to tell a friend, even if I’m resistant to, at first.

Addendum: As for Open Diary, I don’t need to listen to anything anybody says. : P Though, the community is handy, at times.

*nods*

*curls up in the first note spot and nestles it till it’s comfy*

wow……your first note wasn’t red. THat was weird. 😛 Don’t do that to me. I get confused. hehe…..I know it was probably just an accident. 😉 masturbation is good. Poor AImee doesn’t know that.

Kelly

June 24, 2003

The thing for me is .. I’m more open and more comfortable around people online because when they become a threat or a problem to me in another way, I can easily ignore them. It isn’t as easy offline. Plus, I can’t tell people offline about my emotional issues, because they’d tell people I know what I say, and I’d rather my family think I’m absolutely fine.

I’ve thought about “jokingly” buying her a vibrator. Tell her its a gag gift….but a useful one!! 😉 Sorry that person deleted your note. What did you say?? Goodness. I don’t delete notes. Notes are our friends!! 😀

oohh…..that’s nothing to delete a note over. Sheesh. You’re just being honest! 😀 And I saw her entry…..sheesh. That guy was freaky hairy. That’d be like doing it with a bear. 😛

I don’t think it’s really that familiarity breeds contempt, it’s more that we know we want to actually talk to our irl friends again and we worry too much that we’ll say something that will make them cringe and think we’re as dangerous as toxic waste. Anyway, I understand what you mean here. A lot of what I write in my diary I’d never want anyone irl to know.

On your DD: you two make a lovely couple. Why is Bruce smiling so broadly??

Did you just anally sodomize Bang Bang Bruce. He looks like he’s been probed. Oh wait….*thinking*….so do you. Creepy. I’m a random guy and you’ve talked to me before. Why was that different?

RYN:Criminal is a great Fiona song but not my favorite song. I think it might be the most well done video.

Meginsanity

Hey! You stole the picture I found! And edited it! OK so I actually stole a picture some random newsperson took. I love that airbrushing in there to get the Diarymistress out. 😛 OK, ok, now an actual note, and not an accusation. I agree, it is easier to talk to people online than in person sometimes. You can just block the person if you never want to talk to them again (cont)

(cont) …but in real life they can bug you forever. But sometimes I catch myself treating people online as…not-real, I guess, because I’ve never seen them. So there is that. I am making no sense!

Riala Taear'D

ryn: heeeyyy, how do you know about my boobies?…¬_¬

RYN: I WAS RC’D! I had no clue, seriously. Weird.

Timmy- do you want me to start a fan club? No golden showers! Remember? I am Showerfresh Jenny, and to Dan I am MorethancoolJen. I have names! *nudges you back* Hope you’re getting a good sleep

Timmy, no. It’s the number of the entry, I just never remember to do it beforehand.

Soliloquy

June 27, 2003

I think Kivudet has a point. I feel sometimes like my friends expect me to play this role when I’m around them, and if I do something that doesn’t fit their expectations, they will egg me on until I do something that does. Only my really really good friends who I spend time with alone really get to see that real side of myself.

Band Candy

June 30, 2003

Totally get what Kivudet said. My friends are the people whose opinions matter to me. Strangers can love or hate me. No skin off my dick.