Mind.

Illness is an altered state, is it not? Though, I suspect it may also be a result of the dramatic change in scenary. Well, not the scenary itself. I’ve spent the past months pushing myself. Going and going and going. Only two days did I purposely not leave this residence: Thanksgiving Day, and Christmas Day. Otherwise, I recall schooling, socializing, gymming, and certainly working. To spend nearly a week doing none of that, well. Yes, I most definitely feel a little odd.

Of course, I will not pretend there is any such thing as normal.

I feel lonely, and I know this feeling will only grow stronger as the weeks pass. I’ve done my best to avoid being by myself. A solitary life grows madness. Rutgers taught me that much.

Yet, me being me, I somewhat enjoy having a different state of mind. I feel ill-concerned with academic affairs, but maybe I can work that to my favor. I have no desire for food, but how is that any different from how I otherwise am?

If it weren’t for employment, I’d keep my beard.

There’s always an upside. We’ll see where this goes.