i feel so alone

I’ve realized something very interesting since Jess has been gone. I’ve realized how alone I really am. My friend Ginny has seemed to distance herself from me before Jess even left. I honestly think she was offended about a comment I made about not being able to go over to her house because she’s a heavy smoker and being in her house made my eyes burn and I had a headache so lately she has been spending time with her friend Mandy who also smokes. No one has even asked me how I’m doing except maybe one or two people I barely talk to. The big comment I hear is “you must miss him.” I understand people have lives and they can’t talk to me or hang out with me ALL the time but I would just love for someone to stop by and hang out with me for a lil bit or offer to do something or even just text and say hey wuz up but no one has.

If I knew their husband or bf was away I would check in with them and see how they are doing. I posted on FB about having a biopsy on my thyroid to see if I have cancer and not ONE single person said ANYTHING about it. I’m not a big attention whore or anything like that but I was expecting someone to say I’m sorry to hear or something like that but NOTHING. I was actually tempted to delete this diary and my fb. No one would give a shit and no one even reads my diary anyway. Why waste my time and everyone else’s with boring bullshit that no one cares about. I guess I’m just in a depressed mood about the GREAT friends I have and how no one gives a shit about me.