I think someone has it out for me

These past few weeks haven’t been the greatest for me. Last week I got a bad cold which I still have but it’s getting much better. Then Tuesday night I started getting this terrible pain in my lower right side so I ended up going to the ER.We got there about 630 and didn’t leave until 1030. The pain just disappeared which is good but it was really bad for the first few hours I was there. They thought I had a bladder infection but I don’t think that’s what it was.

Then Thursday and Friday last week the teachers in our district decided to go on strike because of some b.s reasons. Their salaries are paid by us the taxpayers. I heard we pay like 96 percent of their salaries so they were asking for more money and more health benefits or something like that. I’m all for the teachers who are actually trying to teach our kids but some of them don’t deserve to be teachers and definitely don’t teach the kids anything. Either way I personally think it was selfish for them to go on strike and then claim that they were doing it for the “kids”. In the end the kids are the ones that have to make up the days at the end of the year. So Thursday I still had to go to work and clean our kitchen because we have a “no strike” clause in our contract so even though the teachers were on strike and there was no kids we still had to come in and clean. Then Friday I got sent over to East to help them clean which I think is b.s. Why the hell should I have to go clean someone else’s kitchen when I don’t work at that school. So was really happy to hear over the weekend that school was going to resume today.

Today I had my appointment to find out the biopsy results. The nurse lady made it sound like I was just going to have to do follow up stuff but when the dr came in he said that they said some of the cells were considered “suspicious” for cancer so he wants to do surgery and remove the left part of my thyroid. He also said that they might have to remove the right side too in the future. The only good thing about the whole situation is I might be able to get it scheduled the week I’m leaving for Jess’s graduation in Oklahoma so I wouldn’t have to worry about the whole 3 day issue I’m having with them. I’m keeping my fingers crossed. Either way I’m going to Oklahoma whether they like it or not. If I am able to do the surgery that week I will probably have to take the whole week off anyway for recovery so it would be perfect timing for that. If not for the surgery my options are to work Wedsnesday and then leave pretty much right after and then call in “sick” for the other two days or just take all 3 days off and get written up for it. So I would probably do the work Wedsnesday and call in sick for the other 2 because I really don’t want to get written up.

I had someone tell me to just wait til he gets home and not take the trip at all. I’m sorry but I already miss him so much and I would really like to get the chance to see him before he leaves for Arkansas for almost another month. I guess it’s hard to understand unless you have been with someone for as long as we have. You don’t realize how much they really mean to you until you spend a LOT of time away from each other. I got annoyed by things he did but I even miss those things since he’s been gone. Hopefully the Army has helped him with some of those annoying habits and I’ve been working with Kacey on some of the same things so hopefully by the time he gets home they will both be broken of them.

Today at work was pretty interesting too. My manager made me wear a face mask after she asked me if I had a cold. I’ve had this cold since like Tuesday of last week and she never noticed even though my voice was all hoarse and icky sounding. Every Wednesday she has me do the register and the closing procedures so in case she has to be gone I know what I’m doing. Well she’s sitting there yelling at me telling me I forgot to do the close for last Wedsnesday and I’m thinking to myself I wouldn’t forget something like that and that there was a reason I didn’t do it. Well we came to find out we didn’t have school last Wedsnesday so she apologized for yelling at me. I was like I may be a little forgetful but I knew I didn’t forget to do the closing stuff. She has me so confused on some things it’s just ridiculous. It’s funny she told me the other day that when we came back from Spring break that things were going to be “less stressful” like all of it was my fault. It’s not all me she confuses me with some of the stuff she says to me and then when I ask to make sure I’m doing something right she yells at me and if I don’t ask she yells at me. What the fuck am I supposed to do then? When I was at the other school on Friday cleaning there was a lady there that worked at the school I work at now and I asked her if she was there when my manager and she said no but then said “she’s difficult to work with.” YOU THINK!!!! I can’t wait for the school year to be over so I can get a vacation.

God I hope the rest of this week gets better before I go insane. I am seriously thinking of starting to drink that’s how stressed I am about everything. It sucks that I don’t really have anyone to talk to about anything. I just feel like no one would give a shit what I have to talk about anyway and that I would just be annoying them. I need to start walking around a park or something to get my mind off of things.Tomorrow I don’t care what is going on I am going to a park and doing that.