From Michigan to Michigan

Time to dump some thoughts out of my head again.

We took a cool trip to Michigan. It was Nox’s first time. Visiting one of my greatest, deepest friends and her sister. My Soul Friend we call each other hahaha. It was a good trip. Nox and I connected and came up with a term for when either of us is feeling weird or jealous or anything untowards during this throuple. Now we have two code words. Had my first real rotating sushi bar experience and it was tremendous!! I totally want to go there again. I really spent entirely too much money on that trip, but it was worth it. I got snacks and treats for Nox, and I even got to get breakfast for my soul friend and Nox. It was a good time all around and played a couple of new games like flip 7 and sushi go dim sum. Of course I won all the games and I made sure that nox got a victory in too.

Nox shared with me that since there has been no in person time with Voidy, her brain sees things as very black and white. And right now, as much as we connect digitally, there is nothing there because she hasn’t been able to go in person. I completely understand. I was also able to hopefully assuage her fears about me. It feels much easier to manage myself this time. It’s like the ridiculous breakdown I had in 2020 was a weird time skip level up time. I am happy that Voidy is on the same page as Nox when it comes to the partner/bf/GF terms. Voidy specifically said that she did not want to see anyone else romantically or sexually. That is huge to me because previously Voidy specifically stated that she wanted to see other people. Maybe she realized that she had more of what she wanted in this throuple?

In other news work is…. Fatiguing. I do not have a difficult job, but I come home so wiped out every day because I have to deal with so many people all day. I truly long for a remote job that pays six figures. I just have to keep searching… I did get my battle narrated earlier this week! I messed up the last one. And I lost this battle but I don’t plan on losing the next one. I just have to come up with a cool strategy!

Let’s see… Headed back to Michigan again next weekend. Planning on playing Pokemon go. I need to get my strategy finalized before going out of town.

I am slightly more tired because of trying to manage my sleep issues. I tried a mouth guard and it went TERRIBLY. Going to try a moldable one tonight. Blah. I wonder what it’s like to wake up and not feel like there is cinnamon behind your eyes. Just burning.

Nox is away visiting S. I have so many thoughts whirling around my head when it comes to that child. I wish him the best, but if he thinks he can come back here and it’s business as normal, he is in for a harsh reality check. I will not let Nox be treated like that any more.

Besides all that, I’m okay. Deeply yearning for Nox. Our intimacy has been off the charts lately (likely because of a lack of S). I also think Nox stated a lack of PTSD symptoms. I have to keep practicing asking and checking in before and during intimacy. If ever we are intimate with Voidy again, I have to exercise asking and talking and speaking a lot. It might be weird at first but it must be done. Everyone’s comfort is counting on it.

Going to wrap this up now. I do not want too much to read later when I review.

Watching: Yaiba: Samurai Legend

Feeling: Fatigued, restless, empty, horny, anticipating

Thinking: I wish Nox would get home already….