Pride Month
Collywobbles. That is the code phrase apparently. We are supposed to use it if ever Nox or I are feeling weird or something in regards to the throuple. It is weird because it’s supposed to be a phrase either of us can use, but Nox has previously regarded not wanted to be a caretaker of my feelings. So truly, it is a phrase for her, and I will keep how I’m feeling to myself hahaha.
How are things going? Work is incredibly annoying. I am deeply not enjoying working there anymore. Especially as metrics and score cards bear down on me. It’s one of those corporate bullshit things where it doesn’t matter how well you do, you are always expected to do more. Or better. Or fix something. Or work more. Or cover for employees. All for what? So I can get paid and enjoy my time outside of work.
Kind of looking forward to this weekend. Pride month volunteering should be fun!! I am not expecting Voidy to have the energy to meet up. Which is fine. I hope she doesn’t feel too badly about it. I am excited to see my Soul friend this weekend. I am not excited to do family therapy next week. I am excited to have a few extra days off work. I am not excited to cover for my staff for the days that they are out. Whenever they are off, I cover for them. When I’m off, I make sure they have everything they need and plenty of coverage to not put too much on any one person. It doesn’t really go both ways. And it can’t. I’m the manager.
Right now I’m kind of burnt out from the work day. Voidy is not well so she has only been messaging Nox and not I. Which is fine. Definitely having slight collywobbles around it, but they are manageable. I doubt that Nox will remember this in the future when Voidy is messaging me. For the record Voidy ALWAYS talks to Nox more than me, but Nox still has collywobbles. Doesn’t make sense to me but whatever I suppose. Ultimately I want whatever makes them both the happiest and most comfortable. So if I have to take a back seat from time to time, truly that is no different than any other aspect of life where I accept that.
Alrighty going to call this now. Man. I freaking love my partners.
Thoughts: man, I’m truly annoyed at life but trying to keep things in perspective because things are SCREWED UP for immigrants and LGBTQ alike.
Music: Epic the Musical