Irrationally Rational

Time Things:

School ends Friday.
There’s no school next Monday and Tuesday.
My British Literature final is tomorrow.
My Nutrition and Wellness (Home Ec.) final is next Wednesday.
My World History final is next Wednesday.
My cousin/the first sister I ever had graduates from her childhood this Saturday.
My best friend/the best sister I’ve ever had graduates from her childhood next Saturday.
I have one year of childhood left.
There’s not enough time to delay the inevitable anymore.

Is it rational to be a little bit afraid right now?

I think that when next year shows up again, I’m going to return to my 5th-9th grade self. I won’t have my best friend and I don’t WANT to replace her with the other people in my life. I know she wants me to, but I don’t want to. I’d feel like a traitor. I think isolation and calmness are good qualities to have. Plus, it’ll help with the stereotype that I am that hyperactive, bipolar, annoying person. 😀

Good bye to the New Me and hello to my Old Friend.