I Haven’t Written In A While

Well I haven’t typed in an entry for a good long time.  Lately I’ve done nothing special except run in a track meet, I had spring break and spent most of that time at work, track practice, and with my g/f.  Today is my third day back in school since Spring Break.  I just found out I have a whole lot of work to make up and do in my english class, and it’s sort of overwhelming, but I’ll work something out.  Prom is I think the 8th of May and I’m waiting to get my tux because Holly is deciding what I wear, it has to match her dress, or so she tells me.  In just about a week it will be mine and Holly’s 2 moth anniversary.  Most people would say that’s not a big deal but to me it is considering my longest relationship ever before this one was a month and a week.  I’ve mentioned in past entries before my bad history with relationships.  Things are working out pretty well with Holly though, I don’t really have any complaints except she is a little high maintnance, she get’s upset or angry pretty easily it seems, she takes things way too seriously most of the time.  It’s just little things I hope she can change a little bit in the future.  I just feel she’s a bit too sensitive, even for a female.  But I’m crazy about her so I’ll deal with it.  She has thrown quite a bit at me a little too fast.  Like the idea of marriage and having children and running away together to Texas to attend college there together because that is where she is from.  It’s just a lot to take in and puts a lot of stress on me that I just don’t really want to worry about right now.  The thought of moving to texas just doesn’t exactly sit too well on my mind.  I honestly don’t wanna leave here because this is where I was born, and I always planned on attending UK, and my entire family lives here.  I don’t know I would have to really be in love with her to make such a big move, and right now I can’t say that I am, I’m getting there though it seems.  It takes time I guess. 🙂 

I’m sure evrybody heard or read about the contractors in Iraq who were killed and hung from that bridge like pieces of meat.  That put a rage in me I just can’t describe.  My first thought was to just leave and bomb the shit out of the whole fuckin country, but then I calmed down and thought a little more rationally and less violently, and now I just don’t know what to think, I don’t know what we should do.  It just pisses me off how at firts the Iraqi people were so thrilled that we took down Saddam, then suddenly they turn on us and hate us all over again and for no reason.  I don’t understand, what do they want us to leave?  If so I don’t see why considering they need us, and we now owe them rebuilding of many towns and cities, their a bunch of ungrateful hypocrites and I say to just finish up rebuilding and then leave, they don’t want us around then fuck em and leave, then once we’re gone and everything get’s worse off then it is now and the whole country just goes further down the drain they’ll be begging for help again but we’ll just say fuck ya and turn our backs.  Ungrateful little bastards. 

Well I’m out, I’m too tired to think of anything else to type about.

Goo