Military, College, Engagement, Life…

Alright well things are going about the same with the military, I’m still hanging in Limbo so to speak.  I sent a letter to Senator Mitch McConnell about my situation with the Army wanting to discharge me medically for something I’ve proven that I don’t have, and he said that he has sent an inquiry directly to the Department of the Army in Washington, so I haven’t heard anything since then and that was about a month ago maybe, but I know these things take a while, we are in the middle of a war and my superiors are quite busy I know, I just wanna stay in, I want to be able to go to Iraq along with my unit who by the way are going in August.  I will be left behind until this all gets fixed, if it gets fixed…

I’m also kind of hanging in Limbo with college also, I have orientation this month however I have passed the deadline to apply for student loans, financial aid, whatever, and I can’t get the money from the Army that goes with my contract until I’ve been either MOS qualified or Medically discharged and I just told u that situation so I mean I don’t know what to do.  I’ve already been accepted to the college, and I’ve already told them that I want to major in Criminal Justice and they’ve already confirmed that through the mail twice now.  It’s so frustrating.  Plus if the Army decides to keep me I’ll be immediatly shipped out for AIT ( My MOS training) and then immediatly shipped overseas to catch up with my unit so enrolling in college would kind of be pointless because I would have to miss that entire year ya know and I would have to make all that up and that just sucks.  Ya’ll seein my dillemma here?

My engagement to Holly…  Well so far it’s goin ok I guess, she’s really getting on my nerves with her constant nagging every damn day about the most insignificant things imagineable, and I mean totally pointless stuff.  And I have to hear her bitch at me for these things and if I try to apoligize she makes sure it takes forever and ever to get her acceptance of that apology which I most often don’t even need to be doing.  Just numerous things with her are driving me up a wall and I mean seriously she is stressing me out beyond what I can handle almost, I mean I’m about to crack with rage and I don’t know what to do.  If I tell her all this then she just turns it around on me and throws a guilt trip in my face sayin somethin like she’s obviously too much trouble and stress for me so I should just leave her and when she says shit like that it pisses me off beyond belief because I know she only says that to make me feel bad for complaining about her and I again have to apologize!!!!  I know this sounds bad but I am actually kind of happy that she is leaving to Texas for about 3 weeks or so to visit friends and relatives.  That would give me some peace and quiet, I hope.  It sucks because I know I love her, I mean when I’m not with her, like WITH her in a relationship I’m miserable and I mean I miss her so bad, yet when I am with her at least for the last 3-4 months or so I’ve been miserable also and I know that is mean to say but it’s true.  I really need this time away from her.

Life…  Life is stressful, confusing, tiring, fast paced, frustrating, and every other emotion fused together to drive us insane, but at the same time I am very appreciative to be living.  I thank God for that and his salvation.

God Bless everyone.

P.S.  Please excuse my bad language, it’s a bad, bad habbit I’ve been trying to break, well maybe not trying but I know I need to.

-Goo