So You Read My Diary Eh…

Well Stephanie, u say u read my diary, well here’s a lil somethin for u to digest, somethin I think u won’t have too much trouble believin but also may not take kindly to it. I told u that I am really close to being over Megan, well that’s true, and I’m actually attracted to about 3-4 other girls, Meocha, Chasity G., Ashley J.,Katie, and some girl I don’t even know her name, but her and Katie are both sophmores I think, that or juniors. Also no surprise, but you as well, but u should already know that, I’ve never been totally over u either, sure ther’s been many times when I was so totally pissed off at u for some stupid reasons, so pissed off that i thought I even hated u at times and would never like u again, childish huh, I know, but hey I’ve changed a lot since Boot Camp, I mean a lot too, I’m a lot more responsible, I’m not as jealous about things, I have a lot more patience as I know u’ve witnessed with my sister. I am not as shy as I used to be, like how I used to be so shy I couldn’t even make a move on a girl , well that’s totally opposite of me now, I don’t know why, but it’s true. I don’t know what it is exactly about u that has always attracted me since the summer before sophmore year, ever since then somethin bout u has effected me and I always seem to want to be with u, as so proven with our 4 or 5 relationships that didn’t work out, but I would say those were my fault because of my being too shy to do anything or even act like a b/f, that and my jealousy, plus u fall for different guys too easy, and don’t say u don’t because we both know u do. 🙂

Well tobe totally honest some more, I want u back, yes again, and I know ur likin Chris still and that other person I won’t mention, but I just know that this time of all the times before would be different, because I wouldn’t care what u did around other guys, I have to expect that considering ur 17 with the body of a 21 year old. Ya know, I’ll live with it. The way I look at it now, Megan was just some fantasy for me, nothing realistic enough, but with u it’s all realistic, and I know ur not some two faced bitch like some people, and I know u know I’d treat u with the upmost respect. So I’d be ready to either get into a relationship or ready to let me down cause sometimes soon I may just pop that question yet again. But this time with no games involved, all seriousness because I believe we’re old enough and mature enough to actually work out a decent relationship this time if that’s something u would want, only problem right now is that I don’t think u do, but that’s cool, no prob. Just warnin ya 🙂

Well I’m out it’s like 2am and I have bowling in the morning, maybe I’ll be lucky and u’ll read this this weekend and maybe somethin will happen next week, who knows, only u know in my book cuzz I already know what I want.