Answers, Answers, Part 2

~Elisabeth asks: Why Rob Thomas? Explain the allure. Was it the lyrics, the voice or the looks that initially pulled you in?

Why Barbie? What do you think began the obsession? Please psychoanalyze.

Ok, last question. I’ve always felt drawn to Catholicism, but I’m more than a little hurt that I wouldn’t be able to take communion because my husband has been married before. I’ve never been married before. I’ve looked into what it would take to have his first marriage annulled, and it wouldn’t be easy to find the witnesses they’d want to speak of his first marriage. What are your thoughts on that? Is it fair?

*purrs* Rob Thomas…*sighs happily* Why Rob huh?  It’s all about his lyrics with me.  My attraction to him began a long time ago when he was virtually unknown.  As silly as it sounds when I first saw him (and he beat my husband’s best friend’s band in a Battle of the Bands in Florida) I honestly felt I had a secret.  Like I knew of this totally great new band that no one else knew about.  I was actually angry when Tabitha’s Secret evolved into Matchbox20 and a bunch of new people starting liking him.  I felt betrayed in a silly way.  Like my great big secret wasn’t such a secret anymore.  I know that sounds weird but I really did want to keep him all to myself. 

Back then when I first saw him, he was overweight and blonde.  (Indeed, BLONDE and pudgy.)  When he opened his mouth and started singing the words to 3 AM I literally started crying right then and there.  That song felt like it was written for me.  Read the words to that song and you almost literally have a peek inside what it was like growing up for me with my mother (minus the violence).  I had never "felt" music that deeply before that.  Sure, I’d always felt music, but nothing ever like that.  Rob has a funny way of releasing music at times in my life when I am going through something terrible.  For instance, Mad Season was released not too long before I was diagnosed with epilepsy!  The song Unwell?  Again, I swear to you it seemed written for me because I was feeling exactly the words he was singing.  At times in the beginning I literally thought I was going crazy and I had to keep repeating to myself that "I am not crazy I am just a little unwell."

It’s just weird…I know he doesn’t have any window into my soul, but it’s uncanny how the lyrics he writes are exactly the things I feel.  I know I am not unique, lots of his fans feel this way.  I also know you can take whatever you want from a song and make it personable to you.  But no other artist has ever done this so completely with me.  For every song he has ever sung?  I have a life experience that totally fits it.  Just weird.  I hate to say this because I know it sounds ridiculous and stalkerish, but I sometimes think Rob and I share the same type of soul. 

As for his looks?  That came later and I think I only started liking his looks because I had fallen in love with his soul first.  That’s how I roll.  I’d love the Elephant Man’s looks if he was kind and caring.  Then after he married Marisol?  I fell in love with the man because he wore his heart on his sleeve and completely adores his wife.  That to me is fucking HOT!  Not hot in the way I want to get nasty with him, just hot.

I already psychoanalyzed my adoration of Barbie in the entry before this one.  😉

I think a lot of things about the Catholic religion are unfair and need to be changed.  I find it completely reprehensible that different CATHOLIC churches teach different things.  Thank God I found a congregation that is welcoming to EVERYONE and accepting of everything. 

Some things I wrestle with are: You not being able to accept Eucharist because your husband was divorced is completely and utterly disgusting to me.  Why should you be "punished" for the "sins" of someone else?  Homosexuality is another.  Women not being able to be priests is another.  Priests not being able to marry is another.  Not correcting the centuries old slandering of Mary Magdelean is another. 

There are a WHOLE LOT of things within my religion that I struggle with.  The thing that keeps me sane and calling myself a Catholic is this: we are all mere mortals.  Priests, The Pope, The Vatican?  All they can do is interpret the bible the best way they can…and I don’t think they’ve done a very good job ofit if I am to be completely honest.  If you notice?  I’ve pulled away again.  I need to reconcile, I will, just not right now.  Right now I am sortof angry again.

Lovehatred asks: How many dildos do you have? KIDDING! NOT a serious question! Uhh… I’m bad at this. Did I piss you off?

I don’t believe I have any dildos.  I have that facking vibrator fake-penis wand called "The Rabbit" and I hate it.  It’s too fucking big for my vagina and is anything but pleasant.  I paid over $80.00 for the bitch too and it ain’t like I can resell it or even give it away.  Bah! 

No, you didn’t piss me off.  Actually, the question made me laugh.  Hee hee.

Cookie66Crumb asks: Would you make a snow angel in the nude?

Oh Cookie, now you should know me well enough by now to know the answer to this question.  FACK NO!  I don’t take my clothes off in public, ever!  No one, and I do mean no one needs to see that.  Goodness. 

Hey, would you?  *chuckles*

Well, there ya go.  Answers to all your most pressing questions.  Thanks for playing along!  At least it got me in here.  Now I must depart and finish ripping apart our file room for fun.  Whoopie!