so..huh how about that?

So huh?Well I decided to apoligize. Because here lately my diaries have lacked substance.

I haven’t written erotica for a while..

I know. 😉 I haven’t noted very well. I have been a very BAD ODER..

But yeah..again sorry.Just life in itself has gotten really great. I didn’t notice how it has progressed until now.

But I did notice.

SO here is what Im gonna do..Try to bring the substance back..Okdoke?

Swell.

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So lets start with the whats and the wheres.

What am I wearing: Red sweatshirt..and my holey pajama bottoms. They are red and white. Mysister got them for me at christmas.

Shoes?: None..barefoot..But my toe naiils are painted black.

Last person I talked to on the phone: D., Of course.Besides Jamie..

D is the person I talk to the most. I like it like that.;)

Last time I jumped on my trampoline: Two days ago.

Last time I drank: Four days ago..It is an accomplishment for me..You just have no idea.

LAst time I had a mental illness issue: a week ago

LAst time I went to the doctor: Yesterday.

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Now lets all move on to last time I wrote. So..I worked last night. Busted my ass. Fifteen Rooms. Three Loads of laundry.

This weekend will be the end of racing season.: ( I shall miss it. But the next weekend…:)

I shall leave it at that.

D. Is still just like I like him.;) Not much has changed in that placing. Things are going good there. 🙂

People at work are giving me shit about it. But I dont really care.

Our relationship isnt just about fucking. Regardless of the gossip and they can kiss my ass.

*apoligizes if that doenst make sense*

Well..I have had some poetry rattling in my brain today so I thought..Hey why dont I share;)

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Released From this cage. The restrictions that tied me. Been chewed through.

It took me many nights. Many unrestful nights..To claw my way through.

This burdening misery I have grown numb to.

I learned through shadows..True trouble was brewing.

Dark anger was stewing..Ready to be relased in fits of angry rage.

WIth gentleness you guided me to this safe place.

In your refuge. The quiet stirs light positive energy.

Energy. Oh yes. It learns to combat the dark.

I need to not worry anymore.

Because the real beauty is there.

And you my honey..see it.

…..

I must sleep..Lol. But I prolly wont. Short of taking sleeping pills I do not like sleeping..

Because..I miss out on things;;)

…Tiamo..Siarai..

New Paintings:

Dirty Pretty Things.

Fervent fevour.

I hope you like em.: D