EATING MY BOREDOM IN TASMANIA
I am currrently in tasmania. a state of boredom is What has induced me to write another ‘Dear diary, today I…’ type entries. It has also contributed to my going to sleep at 8:30PM (very different from my usual early hours of the morning routine), along with an unusual level of tiredness – probably from lack of entertainment. but whose complaining? i new tassie was a bit of a hole when i agreed to come down here. a hole, but i love it.
Havnt seen any friends yet. I’m seeing one good friend tomorrow. I’m excited. she’s taking me to a party to meet some of her friends, so the usual ‘I havnt seen her for 6 months – will we still get along okay?’ thoughts are piled with ‘will they like me?’ ‘will i feel totally awkward all night?’ thoughts. no biggie though.
When I come to tassie 70% of what I eat is junkfood. today I’ve had 3 cubes of tradional turkish delight, 6 minties, 3 jelly snakes, 4 M &ms, 2 biscuits, 1 plate oof spaghetti bolognese, 3 glasses of water, 1 meat pie, 2 glasses of apple juice, 1 hot chocolate and 1 peice of chocolate cake. SHIT. thats an amazing ammount! that’s actually quite disturbing – about 6/7 of what i ate was disgusting for my body.
To complete this entry I will say that today it was very fine weather. Apparently it will change for the worst tomorrow. Hopefully not – although the sun is shining, it is fucking cold down here and I dont know how I will manage to keep warm if it gets frosty as everyone is predicting.
LIZzY
No, actually, I left that message because I have been where you are now. I used to cut all the time. I’ve realized, however, that it is stupid. It doesn’t help as much as you think.. and there are much better things in the world than cutting. You need to realize that it’s stupid to cut, it accomplishes nothing really other than a superficial ‘letting go’ of the pain.. which it really doesn’t.
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and yes, I am irritable. I’m a mother. It drives me insane to hear other people complain about stupid things in their lives. Try having a baby and you will see how miniscule your complaints probably are.
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Hey, I like reading your diary~its awesome! keep it up 🙂 love mj xxx
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wow… sounds like what I eat. Yummy. It’s best not to think about it. 🙂
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