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Kickin’ It at 3am

February 1, 2024
It’s 3 am and I’m awake. So very awake. Only one day into this new bottle and I’m already taking more than I told myself I would. Every day I say tomorrow. Tomorrow never comes. So here I am, awake at 3am. A little worried about doing tomorrow with so little sleep. Worried about stupid…
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