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OH SHIT, WE’RE BACK

April 6, 2018
So here we all are, back on OD. I don't know how long it's been since I wrote my final entry on the original site, because my diary is still updating. This site was so important to me, and truth be told, I downloaded my diary in HTML format before the site closed and have…
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  • Asset 5
    19th February 2018, 9:18 PM
    February 19, 2018
    Before I met you, life was boring and I was depressed. Not to say that I didn’t have things to do, but I’d lost enthusiasm to do them. You inspired me to make changes. I didn’t want to sleep anymore. For the last three years the only thing I would reliably get out of bed…
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  • Asset 5
    Closing Chapter
    February 19, 2018
    He said he’d call me after the gym, and I didn’t hear from him. It’s okay. I’ll leave it. I’ve done what I can for now, and anything more is pathetic. I don’t like the way he talks to me when he’s frustrated. I find he gets frustrated quite easily. I suppose he gets frustrated…
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  • Asset 5
    Deflated.
    February 19, 2018
    I hate this because I feel deflated. Deflated. The same word you used to describe how I make you feel. It’s a kind of emotional exhaustion. Disappointed. Hopeless. A little confused. Why.
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  • Asset 5
    Wishful Thinking
    October 17, 2017
    It's like after I hurt you I couldn't come back from that. Now everything's so serious. I just want to lie on the couch and watch a movie with you. It's okay though, I think I need to let you go... and hope that you'll come back like before this ever happened.
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  • Asset 5
    Baggage Claim
    October 17, 2017
    It’s funny how love is so amazing and awesome that just the thought of losing it brings about so many negative feelings. Most of all fear. And we respond to that insecurity in funny ways. Too quick to judge. Too quick to anger. Too quick to defence-mode and jumping straight into heartbreak before...
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  • Asset 5
    Mysterious Beginnings
    October 6, 2017
    Baby, I get way too excited when I talk to you. It’s funny how I love you changes things. Suddenly I’m comfortable being excited. And being scared. And being all the things I didn’t show you before I love you. All the things you didn’t actually love me for. I should’ve have taken the words to mea...
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  • Asset 5
    [Photo incl.] Open Diary improved my eyesight.
    January 29, 2014
    When I was 14 I had depression. Even as I slept I couldn't see clearly - for years I was blind in my dreams. I used Open Diary to clear my thoughts and improve my vision. This website calmed me on some of my roughest, loneliest days; I hope everybody that needs that solace finds…
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  • How do you show someone that you love them?
    January 21, 2014
    Actions speak louder than works. They make things happen. They can't be taken back. Actions are fearless. It's strange how much I like him. I've never been like this. Ever. It's not that I'm crazy-emotional. I just think that ... perhaps I should explore the possibilities before letting this pass...
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  • Those things you can’t write about
    January 20, 2014
    Some things are so fucked up that I can't talk about them. Not many things, but some. I don't know where to start, or if I even care, or how to write it. There are some things so close to home that I can't bring myself to  type them. I wonder what would happen if…
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