HIDE HOW UGLY I AM

when people are talkin to me, all i cant think of is ‘if i look them in the eye they’ll see how ugly i am’ or ‘they feel sorry for the ugly one’. maybe thats unrealistic – i dont think like that while i’m talking to a person who is not generally concidered attractive, yet with myself, a different set of rules applies. it works that way for so many things.

it’s unrealistic and damaging.

god, writing stuff down helps to work everythin out so well.

im gettin up a 4 tomorrow morning. going for a jog. im going to get skinny legs the healthy way this time.