DOWN A BAD ROAD.

i’m really sorry.. hang on, there is hope. you just need to look for your train and hop on.. if that makes sense. i know how you feel.. except help is being handed to me, and i am shoving it away with all my might–talk about ungrateful on my part.

life will get better, you’re only young, when u go to uni or work, people are more mature, you’ll make proper friends, good friends and they’ll be there for you when you need them. it happened to me??

ryn: thanks for your note, it made me smile. lol and thanks for not thinking my entries are “too boring” lol even tho i know sometimes they are when i go into the details of what i do in my boring life. and thakns for reading. and everything else, it really does make me feel better when you guys leave me notes like that reminding me that people are reading, and if they take the time to read,

then they obviously care. sometimes it’s easy to forget that. and to forget about the fact that anyone is reading it at all, and to just write what you feel, no matter how many times you’ve written about it. so i’m off to write an entry, probably a long ass shit filled entry that is about things we’ve all read a million times, but everyone will also live and will probably still read it too lol

AWWWW!!! Stick in there buddy!! Luv *-*Kelse*-*

what makes you doubt that Jesus exists? most historians would agree that a man named Jesus exists, it just seems like things haven’t been going the best for you, things aren’t always perfect for me but i’ve found someone who takes care of me so good that I wanted to share that with you, and about the band thing, would God really want you listening to bands singing about bad stuff? God Bless

ryn: thanks, yes you’re right i just wanted my a*s to make a good impression. he he, oh well, all done now.

you know; this is not the first time god called you to be with him; but it seems like only in times when your troubled, you would listen to his voice; every time your troubled your heart calles out to him; and every time your troubled god hears your cry; and i tell you even in the moments you dont believe in him, he is there for you; you know; as you’ve said in your RYN, that i might be onto

something; and your right; for i know exactly whats going on in you; for i know the cry’s of lonelyness; i know the sadness of tears that i had all my life; for i was in darkness claimed by death; but god showed me the light; and i saw, that the light was love that always kept me up even through the hardest times; and my choice to live in the light came easy after 20 years of pain, lonliness and

sadness; that i wish never to depart from him ever again;… don’t put this off until you are consumed by life so much; that you forget his love; call out to jesus and god will forgive you; and you will experience the greater love; that you always longed for; god is love; and through jesus christ alone, you can find god; call on him and he will answer you love

yes i’ve looked into that, but as a Christian I believe that the bible is the absolute truth, I don’t think God would let something as big as what was to be called His Word have errors in it, the bible was written by man with the inspiration of God himself, many different people wrote the bible over a period of time and if you check the scripture backs up eachother even though it may have been

written with a couple hundred years difference it still has the same message, people have been trying to prove the bible wrong for centuries but it still hasn’t be done, God Bless

I started a new diary. I really want you to read it. xXxyou.are.prettyxXx I hope it helps. I am very worried.

stop walking down the bad road. backtrack to that fork, and make the decision that will lead you onto better things. nothing lasts forever, if you have enthusiasm and the motivation to fix it. you have to really want this – and i’m sure you dont want to be feeling so crap in the years to come. you’re young, and growing up should be pleasurable, not painful sweetie. *hugs*

i been down a bad road before: drinking, parting, messing around…its when you want to make a change, that life gets better for you…your young….there’s a lot more in-stored for you…you have tons of choices to make and life gets easier with-in time..and honestly…a guy from work helped me..he told me to go to church and pray and i did and my life really turned around…

How sad… not really. Just be strong, stop being weak. Speaking as a suicide survivor or 10+ times I say you have no reason to even think the way you are… seriously. Usually I wuold say that you just want attention, but I won’t.

(((hugs)))

thnkyou for my note. keep in there, things have got to get better right? even if theres one day a week of happiness, thats better than none. take care of yourself xx

the most beautiful crazy path you can take is to keep fighting.

I can give you suport if you need it. Just leave me notes if you need help. I may be still young but I have wisdome beyond my years. Espesily when it comes to teen problems and I’m not just saying that really everyone says it.