RAMBLING

To people on the outside looking in, I look like I have friends. Lot’s of them. There are heaps of people I say hi to when I’m walking down the corridore at school. But why, then, do I feel like I have nobody? Is it a stupid thought or is it an indication of reality?

People are always telling me I smile a lot. I don’t usually do it consiously, I suupose I just always have a smile on my face. Yet I’m not happy. On the other hand I am happy that I have people so fooled.

I think I ate 450 cals today. Maybe a bit more. Would have been 200 if I hadn’t eaten 12 biscuits. My dad said he was worried I had a mild case of compulsive overeating. I hate how he’s always trying to get me to eat either more or less. It’s eaither ‘You havnt been eating’ or ‘There’s too much fat in your diet, don’t you care about getting fat?’

It’s earnly in the morning again and I shoudl probably get my grounded ass to sleep. Missing out on seeing House of Wax tomorrow. I’ve been looking forward to that movie coming out for so long. It’s got Paris Hilton in it. Anyone seen it? Scary or not? I’m also missing out on a close friend’s party. Wouldnt suck that much, but this particular friend has a 4 story house secluded in the country so it will be something special I imagine.