NOT ASKING FOR HELP
Maybe I need help. Probably not. Am I that pathetic that I’d need help for my life in general? I have no problems, just my fucking stupid mind.
I hate myself so much. I hate this entry. I hate it for looking and sounding so stupid.
I’m lost. I cut last night. Just to see the blood. I felt it physically. It hurt. In ways that’s a good thing. didnt cut deep. jus a few drops of blood even fell on my pillow. I cant even cut deep.
Does everyone need someone? I have to remind myself that it can’t be true. ’cause if it was then where would that leave me? Everyone seams to have someone. Everyone who is depressed has someone to talk to. Everyone has someone to check their rist every now and then. Someone who says ‘I want to talk to you about this later’. Where the hell is mine? I dont have one cause why the hell should I. It’s not that I don’t deserve one. Its that I’m not good enough for one. Fuck. Listen to me. You hate me too. For being so…like this. Its embarassing even writing it down for everyone to read.
Im not happy. But nobody cares. They want me to suffer cuz they probably hate me deep down.
Help me Im losing to myself this time.
But leave me alone I wont accept the help. I cant talk there’s nothing to talk about. Wat the fuk is wrong with me.
Its funny that im even on here, Im touched when people say they wana talk to me. Im touched when people say I have helped out. I think about it after ive left the computer. a week ago someone called liz posted me saying she wanted to talk to me. give me advice she had ‘a lot to tell me’. I wish I could have replied, but she didnt leave her diary name. I just want someone to talk to. If being pathetic is human then I’m so human that other humans would think i was weird.
i dont know what to do, what to think. It seams like all my friends dislike me. people are messing me round, i dont know why theyd wana screw with me like this. I dont know what I did wrong.
thats how i am. and i care. i do
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You can talk to me. Just leave me notes any time you need to. Mabey I can help maybe I cant but it’s always nice to talk to some one. Viset my diary if you get the chance.
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Hey gee u kinda sound like me. I get pretty f*cked up and depressed about stuff. I cut too. Usually I have a pattern, and end up doing it everytime I get really hurt and pissed off by someone (usually my bf) U can always note me anytime. I’ve been through lots of stuff. I might be able to give u some advice that will help. Kristel
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Hey chicky…Listen up…I might be young I’m 15 but I know how it feels rto be depressed to no ending…I feel at times like there is no hope left for me…I am nothing but a demetend teenaged soul….eave me a note I eant to help
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ryn: i was confused lol… glad to hear you didnt pay $391 for a bunny… that seemed a little steep but hey, its your money if you wanted to spent that much, who am i to judge or stop you? have a good day hun!
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everyone needs someone sometimes and I know thats hard to believe. Its hard sometimes in any case. Anyone who tells you on here that they want to talk to you is surely being sincere and I know its hard to believe taht at first but sometimes you have to go out ona limb, u kno? If you want to talk note me. Ill be here for you when you decide you want to talk even if your just taking about the day.
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Hey… Its me Liz… My diary name is Daliza
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yeah i feel like all my friends dont like me either. i feel like they are just pretending to like me sometimes. ive been feeling depressed lately and acting diffrently lately. i feel like i lost my best friend scince the 4th grade. because shes been hangin with kristian and when shes with her she acts like a bitch to me…but idk. im here to help if you need it! im always on the computer! -later
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please leave me a note…talk to me. I care and I want to try and help you out. Sometimes it just helps to ahve someone who you know is listening and cares…you arent pathetic and you deserve someone to listen. Leave me some notes and just TALK TO ME please.
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