DOES EVERYONE THINK OF SUICIDE. . .
. . .Every now and then? Just contemplate it… What it would mean to be nothing at all. Would you go to heaven? Hell? What would people say? Would they remember you the same day a year later?
A few days ago I was at my local shopping mall. It’s 7 stories high. The top story is the cinema. Somebody jumped from the 6th story to the ground floor. Very suprisingly, they fell on somebody walking underneath. Neither of them died. Both are in intensive care at the hospital.
Can you imagine that? You’d think jumping 6 stories onto concrete would be a foolproof suicide attempt. But noOo… She’s probably kicking herself right now for not spending $10 on a movie ticket so she could get up to the 7th floor and jump from there. Maybe the extra floor wouldn’t have made a difference. Maybe it just wasn’t her time to go.
I saw her. Her face was covered with blood. I couldn’t tell whether she was old or young, her body was too ruined. Her fucked up mind survived but her well-functioning body is now never going to work again.
I stood still. My gaze stuck to where she fell. People rushed around me, hands to their gaping mouths, or pointing. One man was even laughing. There’s yet another fucked up mind in the crowd. As I stared, I wondered why she did it. And who could have made a difference.
I wish everybody could just be happy and carefree and just run around slowly fucking themselves over. Or maybe fucking yourself over is only what unhappy people do when they’re in a happy mood. Or maybe that’s just me.
Suicide is a way of telling God, ‘You can’t fire me because I QUIT!’
lol, i love that quote….. of course, we all think about suicide. even when i wasnt depressed i did, very occaisonally. now, of course, i do a lot more, and the fact that im willing to act on those thoughts… it scares me. if u really are thinking about, more than u think u should be, then u really need to talk to someone about it…
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used to but now i think bout it and now it goes just like that
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i love that quote. and to actually have a fool proof suicide is to jump from a 15 story or higher building so that way u faint by the tim u hit the ground so if ur not knocked unconsious it wont hurt. dont ask how i know lol.
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Once I wondered what it would be like to die but I never tought about killing myself to find out. I do thin about it from time to time but not often (And if I do it’s usaly during my period when I’m in too much pain to make myself get up)
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random noter.. but I really liked your quote!
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wow. I’m really at a loss for words…thank you.
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Yes.
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Hold up, somebody was laughing!!??????? thats disrespectful. BTW thanx for the advice on the pix. nother question… how do i get a picture in my OD profile?
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ya, i think about it all the time.
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I think about it a lot, actually. But the weird thing is, even though I could (kind of) imagine myself doing it, the thought of a loved one doing it makes me incredibly angry. I don’t know if that even makes sense. But I get sooo upset when I hear of an attempted suicide. I suppose I’m a bit of a hypocrite. *Hug*
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actually yes, most peoepl think abtou it at some point. and yea, 6 stories isnt really foolproof at all… generally you need 10 before you have a good chance of dying. my dorm building has 12. heh, nto that ive thought abtou it…
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I use to think about it more. Now Im feeling alive again and dont want to die like I once did (this time last year) I still dont like it much here on earth but only because I believe in Heaven and know its much better there. Why are we here? Ask the lade he fell on, we are here for each other. That (to me) is the meaning of life. God Bless and take care.
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it’s kind of weird that i happened upon this entry…as i had just finished writing my suicide letter, or at least how i think it would look if i actually do decided to do anything unreasonable. But yeah, i’m sure evryone does think about at some point in their life. Sucks, but…such is life i suppose. take care.
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Somebody laughed? Damn, that’s heartless…
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I found you in Readers Choice. Quite a thought provoking entry. I’ve lost, and alomost lost 🙁 I can’t believe someone was laughing.
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i found your diary in the readers choice, the entry was really thought provoking, like someone said earlier. I have thought about suicide. It is normally in January when I do, my best friend died and another one is in a coma. It has been 12 years since the accident, and I think, why wasn’t it me and then think about how I would end it. But I never go through with it. Jenny wouldn’t want it
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recently yes… i walk along and cross a road and think, “i could just walk in front of that car”, or i sit in bed holding a pillow and think ” i could just hold this over my mouth” i know i wouldn’t do it……..i dont think
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