Independent Me

last night I came to screaming.

I was terrified of what I was dreaming

The ground opened, and Hell was beneath me.

 I started to plummet,  no on would save me.

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so I have been fighting the urge to call her.  I know the separation was a blessing but I miss the small things that won my heart by the end.  3 months and no word.  She calls today in regards to my job as an EMT in the 911 system of her county.  I dont know why, but im torn.  She ended it.  And im not begging her to love me.  She is not going anywhere in life, and I want too.  I just want to know why, although im sure I already know.  I will always love her.   I still love the one before her.  Anyways, I digress.