Open letter to Vickie.

I don’t like you. I’m not gonna sugar coat it. You fucked my bf knowing I loved him and he loved me because you didn’t give a fuxk about me either.

Well I have now been devastated as far as I’m willing to be devastated. For the last 25 hours I have suffered the worst kind of torture imaginable. He has decided to ignore me and not answer my calls or texts. He is not even close to the man he used to be and he never will be as long as he has the people in his life that he has now. He’s a cruel coward afraid to look into my devastated face. He won’t even call back. He’s that fucking cruel to me. And listening to you talk like you know him better than me and listening to you act superior to me is a fucking travesty I ain’t willing to deal with.

You have NO FUCKING clue what you’re dealing with and let me tell you right now you won’t be able to handle it cuz you don’t have what it takes or he would have left me for you when you tried to make him. Instead you won by default because you will let him be a piece of shit and accept that to get your cigarettes and rent relief. That fucker owns you, you pathetic, cruel, heartless cunt. You hurt Lori too. Shame on you, you deserve his lying ass.

He ignores me because he is ashamed of what he’s doing to himself and to me…had he ever been faithful? Nope. And if I can’t keep him faithful then nobody can because I went to the ends of the earth to keep him happy but he is a selfish bastard at the moment and he simply does not give a fuck what pain he dishes out.

After 15 years he has turned on me just like that. If you had not called me and gotten thru to me, he would have never had to confront the fact that he was going to leave me and never even discuss it. HE just moved on to you.

So here we are. I can tell you that it won’t matter what you do to make him happy. It won’t ever be enough and he will demand more and more until he has no need for you or he no longer benefits from what you have to offer. After 15 years he ditched me because of drugs and you sucking his cock so he didn’t have to drive as far and fork out good drug money for a hotel.  When he is done with you or cleans up his act, or you’re bugging his lifestyle, he can turn you off and leave you outside like a stray dog when he decides something better than you comes along. Just like he did me. You aint special but he will try to convince you he thinks you are.

That man worshiped me and put me on a pedestal for 15 years and now you and drugs have taken the best thing in my life…or so I thought. Now he won’t even face me, he’d rather let me suffer alone so he can have his drugged up face in your pussy.

How did he go from THAT to lying,.hiding and having zero integrity.

I hope that you are ready for the new roger because I have finally given up on getting the old one back. You may feel like you won but I’m gonna tell you that you ain’t getting half the man I had for 15 years but he’s all yours now and it ain’t cuz I didn’t fight for him. You saw me fight but in the end, he chose YOU because with you he can get away with being a lesser man. You’ll never know the man he once was, you’ll get this version because the old guy ain’t coming back and he proved that to me last night.

The man I knew would never hurt me like this.

Today my best friend is coming from an hour and a half away to hold me,and to take me to get the help I need to process the trauma Roger is putting me through. I’m sick from what he has done to me and what you have done to me. He won’t answer my calls so I officially gave up on ever getting him back.

You win. He said you’re merely convenience. It doesn’t matter that he loved me… convenience and money matter way more than I did. You had already won bcuz he was taking time away from me for you so take your prize and go away. Please stop calling me every time you feel doubt.  He said you wanted my name so you could use it to hurt me and my family. He said you would hurt me. He probably said that so I wouldn’t call you and he wouldn’t be discovered still fucking around with you. Cuz he planned to lie about that too. Don’t worry about me fucking him, he has hurt me so much I’d have to sell my soul to take him back and YOU still want him????? How fucked up ARE you that you want him knowing all you know. And you can’t hurt me any more than he has no matter what awful revenge you try to get. You stirred the fucking pot so here’s the truth.

He gave me a ring and it meant NOTHING to him as he was eating your pussy. Let’s hope your lying ass does better than me.

Take your bitch and go, you shit bag. Your filth better not ever touch me again. I’m done dealing with your flat ass psychotic behavior.

Party on, dumbass. Wish I had a front row seat to the boxing match between your last two brain cells fighting for dominance.