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• Wishful thinking

  August 8, 2025

  I am 58 years old.   I feel 25 or 30.   I am the most confident I have ever been. I feel like I know which battles to pick, which hill to die on, how to prioritize life and how to best love myself and others.   I appreciate and find the joy in…

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• Papa was a rollin’ stone

  August 8, 2025

  I recently spent 3 weeks at an air b&b on a 75 acre berry farm in upstate New York with my daughter and grandson.   It was the best vacation I have ever had and when we had to leave for home, I literally cried tears of sadness. I have steadily yearned for the finger…

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• Chapel of love

  April 26, 2025

  I am up early because today, my baby gets married.   We are having a huge formal affair in a refurbished historical furniture factory. It's three floors of elegance and class in a major metropolitan city. Not bad for a redneck.   So, in about 15 hours I will be drunk on expensive cockta...

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• Winds of change

  April 25, 2025

  It's about time I wrote in this diary about something other than Roger and Vickie, because life is about more than just your heartaches.   So, from now on, I will journal a little bit about daily life, and other things…and NOT just what I need therapy for, lol.   Here goes…I'm picking a...

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• Vickie please lose that number

  April 24, 2025

  The girl is like clockwork. I can count on her to call every 2 or 3 months without fail. Last time she called was in February, so tonight was no exception, as it's now been about 3 months. She told me that she reached out to me yet again because she believes we have “weathered"…

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• P. S…

  February 4, 2025

  And DON'T ask me if you don't want the truth...after all, you seem to value it SO much. So yeah, you asked, and then you lashed out when I triggered you with an honest answer to your question. You didn't like what I had to say because it threatened your fragile self esteem and your…

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• Dear God…

  February 4, 2025

  Please make this crazy bitch go away.   Please stop making her feel the need to hurt me every time she is scared or insecure or just plain pissed off.   Please let her lose my fucking number.   Please stop making her think she owns the movie rights to my life or that she…

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• One more thing…

  November 15, 2024

  You can both fuck off.   Neither of you give a shit about me and I don't know who you're trying to bullshit.   Oh yeah, have a nice weekend.

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• A simple “yes” will suffice

  November 15, 2024

  What is it, Vickie?   What is it that you really want?   Because you sent me a one paragraph text asking me how I am and if my “spirit" is intact. You told me you " worry a lot” and "a simple yes will suffice”. I didn't have to respond but I did, because…

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