Depressed soul

From October – December 2021 I’ve been depressed without fully knowing. It slowly dragged me in till I had lost hope in things I used to hold on to tight. I couldn’t be positive because the feeling of things never working out have dominated my thinking. I lost my self esteem too and probably grew to know the people around me more and putting everyone in their places.  I almost got suicidal and would sit down in my room and cry to God for strength. Currently I’m still trying to become a better person but I’ve become very hopeful than ever. Depression really is not lack of things , it’s overreacting on the negativities and being blind to the positive side of things. As I pen this note down to my future self, I would love to also over emphasize the importance of having a high self esteem.