Find Balance

Today sucked. Pretty hard. Right as I was getting Finn out the door his omnipod started screaming and malfunctioned so I had to do a pod change. He missed the bus. No big deal, I tried to take him to school. The Suburban wouldn’t go into gear. Jeff spent all day watching videos and tried to figure out what it is. He talked to a mechanic who said it sounds like there is water being introduced to the electrical system and there’s an issue. He gave him a couple tips. The other option is its a switch under the brake pedal. No big deal. But it sucks because we didn’t know that this morning and Finn wasn’t able to go to school. I feel terrible.

The microwave didn’t get installed because Jeff got tired and didn’t want to go to the cold garage for his tools, fair. Seriously. Then today he was worried about the truck. I will get it installed soon I am sure. I was basically paralyzed by Finn missing school and the stress of the truck that almost nothing got done. That’s life, it just sucks something fierce.

Today’s card was “find balance” and I really need to work on that. Clearly if something like what was going on today I am completely useless. I just sit and get lost in a spiral of thoughts. I think its a big reason I cant work. I cant just fake it through the day, one misstep and I get stuck in my head. Now that I know its likely not the transmission solenoid I am not as anxious, but lord, I was a mess.
Being poor is so debilitating honestly.

This isnt as long as I wanted but I am exhausted and need to go to bed.