Reactions

I’m pacing across the floor, jaw clenched, thinking of what you said to me

About ready to confront you 

The lies you tell me make me 

Want to go hide away somewhere

You told me you’d never lie to me 

But you could never tell the truth anyway

And when I think of what you’d tell me I would want to run away

 

Sometimes my actions aren’t the best

I’ve hurt people, hurt myself and done things I can’t undo

I’ve lashed out, shut down, ranaway

I’m not proud of who I was

Because I’m part of you and you’re part of me 

 

You tell me that you’d always be there

And I believed that was true

Buy you’re no longer here

And you say it’s because of the things I do 

I try to be better about the things I say and do 

I feel myself spinning out of control

When I give the reactions I give it’s because I care

I care about the father I knew

But I don’t know you anymore

 

Sometimes my reactions aren’t the best 

I’ve done things I can’t undo but

I am trying to

Cope, talk things out, work with others,

Stay clean, control emotions 

I’m not proud of who I was

Because I am part of you and you’re part of me 

And I’ve worked on myself 

The rest is up to you

Because you’re part of me and I’m part of you