my dad | 1

tw : mentions of abuse

my dad is so moody, I’m pretty sure he has Bipolar. with how he switches on me so fast it makes me wonder what is making him this way, he went from throwing me around and beating me, even POPPING A BLOOD VESSEL. to hugging and asking if I was okay this morning, no! i’m not okay dad! you just mercilessly beat and abused me! thanks for asking though! it’s honestly the sole reason I’m ever-so-afraid of him, and yet he tells me there’s no need to be afraid around him. yeah, okay.

i’m not sure if he’s not diagnosed or just straight up a monster, he takes his anger out on me for no reason and for the dumbest reasons too. I remember I had a horrible stomach ache so I went to the bathroom, I was interrupted mid-way to my father yelling at me to get out, all because I hadn’t started my homework yet. ???, I understand I took a little long but he’s acting like I wasn’t going to get to it. and his response to it is much worse.

by the time I had given up on trying (he had yelled at me again) I went to my room only to be asked what I was doing, I (obviously) said I was using the bathroom. he got up, walked toward me, and grabbed me. he threw me around a bunch, and then slammed me into a chair. I was crying by then, and he continued to beat me on my back even while I was booting up my computer to do the work. and when he was done, I felt a stinging in my hand, so I looked down only to see a popped bloody vein with some dried blood clotting around it.

his only excuse for doing this was, “you shouldn’t be crying, you used to cut up your arms and legs.” ??, what the FUCK dad. all of this over me using the bathroom is absurd, the only reason mom hasn’t left you yet is because you’re like her only friend. fuck you, you aren’t my dad. you’re nothing more than my abuser.