Right Here

Right here waiting..
you’d find me
confused lost in thoughts, debating
what is it you see?
 
what do you hope for?
what do you want from me?
sitting still, waiting for more
your taunting words won’t let me be.
 
I can’t sleep, can’t eat
tausing and turning
my heart skips a beat.
The fire keeps burning.
 
yet do you even see
every promise, every glimmer of hope
keeps your hold on me
It’s taking all I have just to cope.
 
Why?
I don’t understand
I’m torn; to live, or to die.
you have control, at every command.
 
I don’t want to do this anymore
I don’t want to dream about what could be..
only to watch my life walk out the door
with out me.
 
If you really want this
I’ll be here with open arms forever more
there will be nothing to miss
no more shattered dreams lying on the floor.
 
But if you’re just playing
let me go, let me be
Quit repeating the things you’ve been saying..
prove it to me.
 
Or as sure as I’m here
 right or wrong 
Like this moment, soon I’ll be gone.
But know this, I won’t shed a tear.
 
Not this time.
For as sure as these words ryme.
The sun will set.
And life will go on as if we never met.
 
~Lily