Lonely

Ya, well. I just keep thinking backwards and all it’s doing is making me feel really lonely.

Then my old bffer pops on w a great Pic of her and her man.

He tried to get w me first…. but I wasn’t really ready. He would message me all the time, he even slept on the floor so we could go to a flea market together. We did and After that, he reconnected w her and I was history.

A perfect gentleman.

However he’s been a huge part of her life since they were young.

So I’m glad they’re still going but it just reinforces facts. Everyone is happier and finds their person, immediately after me.

My prom date did, another’s guy who ttiwhen we were much younger,  I eventually hooked up w when we were in our 20s, and he got married to the woman after me.

Another with the same scenario did too.

Another and another.

8 I think. And I just can’t stop those words from leaving my mind.

You’ll never be anything to anyone other than a side dish.

And so far, that’s all they all Want.

So being lonely is my only option.

Rather be lonely than be used, again.

Almost fifty here. Put that chapter to rest.

Oh but I had fun…

Anyway..