Recent Entries

• 8 years ago… pre daughter

  September 16, 2023

  Gratitude day 4: so, to start it out...There are two of my favorite pills on the counter screaming my name. They are not mine, but they were once my friends. 11 some years ago. Before that... We go way back. I am grateful for being strong enough to stay the fuck away and for knowing…

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• Toxic

  September 14, 2023

  How he can lie to me and try to make me believe it, is just... well, its toxic. He's toxic. I'm stuck, but at least i can recognize it. He told me dude didn't need him this week and dude told me he absolutely DID ask him to work. Sooo, hes a friggin liar. I…

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• A quiet morning

  September 13, 2023

  Made the pulled pork in the crock pot, so its really ready to go now at any time.  Like everyone always wants it but i barely see anyone eating it. I was supposed to go to the store w my mom but we flaked. Going to work online for most of the day, and hope…

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• Peace

  September 11, 2023

  I finally have a little peace today, while she's at school. I forgot she had a test today for math, and tomorrow for spelling. I must remember to have her study when she gets home. Its just so weird,  a first grader taking a test. Just... weird. Also, i am still trying desperately to get…

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• The sickness

  September 8, 2023

  I feel like shhhhht and i am completely exhausted.  Yet, i wanted to also spend some time with my son. So, he's making me a celeste pizza we jazzed up with more cheese before we put that frozen crap in the oven. No wonder it was on sale! My girl was off the chains this…

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• Wow. Trauma

  September 7, 2023

  I feel horrible for J. Whst i learned is like just... wow. Sad his gf hung herself, sad he got into a serious accident. Just sad stuff. Just found out today. I reached out. We talked basically daily. Until shit happened.  My ex hated him, mostly. Or did he? I can't remember, anymore. Its late.&he...

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• Just ugh

  September 7, 2023

  Working online, got a few sales, but not nearly enough.  Supposedly hes getting paid Saturday for the two days he did work already. Saturday,  they're supposed to get the stuff and work on the bathroom and kitchen. I'm going to my moms and i plan to take pics as much as i can. My head…

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• Time up

  September 6, 2023

  My girl was home sick, today. Shes returning tomorrow. Which means i have exactly 2 days to get my butt in gear and take more photos.  

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• So what

  September 6, 2023

  I really don't have anger issues, dude just pisses me off. He really is verbally abusive.  Like hes nice to literally everyone but me and my kids. I've told him to stop. He just refuses and i get mad listening to him act w such authority. No wonder my girl never listens. I don't want…

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