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• Being sick or whatever

  June 9, 2024

  Literally been years since I took a solid 3 hour nap, but apparently that's exactly what I did today and I'm still kinda tired. Now I also have a store throat which isn't helping my horrible cough and strange breathing, lately. I should go get checked but I don't want to know what's going on.&hel...

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• Drama w dep. Of human services

  June 8, 2024

  Once again. It's all behind me now, I filed an appeal, they got it straightened out. I swear they do this shit on purpose. Going back to having an investigator question me, then weeks later a denial letter, which I absolutely appealed, to them just constantly messing up all my paperwork. They see...

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• so now what

  June 3, 2024

  Last day of my girls school was on Friday. My son is done on Wednesday. I've been feeling miserable with whatever I got making me sick. I was so tired earlier and took a mini nap. Now I'm up. Tomorrow I'm just going to stay home. Ugh. I have to go to the bank, eventually…

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• My best friend

  May 10, 2024

  My best friend was broken into pieces the other day. It literally had everything I need to do everything I do. My best friend is a cell phone. They say to never ever depend on technology but I literally lost everything with it. My son is going to try to recover it usb to usb…

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• Silence

  May 4, 2024

  You know idk why i do this to myself but that's now two unanswered messages from him. Rude, so i just gotta accept it. And for whatever reason,  I just can't. Today is a lasagne day. Today is a comfort day. Maybe a nap is in order, if my kids will let me.  

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• Welp.

  April 4, 2024

  Okay, so he did apologize but.... ya idk. I've been chatting w him a little byt it just seems off. Apparently he also converted his religion ftom lutheran to catholic. I'm atheist so theres that... wasn't even aware religion was important to him. But whatever. My heart is never going to fully let...

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• Guh

  March 19, 2024

  Been sick, been whatever.  Today, i just messaged him and he responded and told me he was sorry, he had to sort stuff out or whatever.  But then i asked about his cancer and we had a long chat so i gave him a ton of information. Now, i know i really should not have.…

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• Sick of it.

  March 11, 2024

  Sorry i haven't written in here for awhile. Stuff on my mind though and of course nowhere to go with it. So when i was married,  my husband had brain cancer.  I helped him through it, step one and raised my son who was just a baby at the time. I did it all and…

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• Reminder to myself

  February 18, 2024

  My words of wisdom i passed on to another discussing deadbeats. I would rather have an absent parent, than the chaos of instability.  

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