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• Sick of sick

  May 22, 2023

  Welp.... An executive decision has been made. My kid is home from school tomorrow. I really, really can't wait for school to be done so my kids can stop getting every damn germ. Idk what this one is other than a sinus infection but it really sucks. Shes really particular wirh medicine. I ran out&...

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• Bullying

  May 18, 2023

  I'm too sensitive for this school thing. Again, another parent had me in near tears, I couldn't breathe listening to her tell her child about ignoring them and all the things I say to my child about it. I guess it just hit a chord with me. Kids are so damn cruel. I got it…

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• Remembering

  May 13, 2023

  I remember when he first went in. The day he called himself in he told me he had something he needed to take care of. He wanted to be a better man for us. I also remember his schizophrenic mood where he swore up and down that he heard a few men in there talking…

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• Night thoughts

  May 12, 2023

  So once again there's another hearing on 7/11. Not sure what for but at least he's in. I guess it was also requested he get a psychological evaluation while in there. So, he's using his mental illness as an excuse in his favor. And all of it really makes me sick. Honestly everything would be…

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• Tired

  April 13, 2023

  I am not tired. Its depression. So yesterday i took my girl to hometown for awhile and today we did ice cream and hung out a little at a state park. Tomorrow i get my son. Dude still has not paid me. Promised and apparently never followed through. If i needed to do amy touchups,…

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• Busy

  April 5, 2023

  So i was volunteered to paint another home. By myself. All the rooms. I was hesitant but he did pay and promises more after the race on Saturday.  I'm not holding my breath but i sure hope so. I know it would have costed at least 8 or 9 to do it all and i…

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• And now

  March 12, 2023

  My bro is in jail, too. Too bad they're not in the same one because I'm pretty sure they'd be talking a lot. Anyway, hes innocent. No, wait... hear me out. Hes got larceny charges. He drove a vehicle his ex reported it stolen because she thought he was cheating and i will be honest,…

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• I listened

  February 9, 2023

  To the way his dad spoke about me while he was on speaker phone. And while it truly upset me to hear what others think of me, i also kept in mind that hes an abusive man.  What bothered me a bit more is that he didn't even stick up for me. Just told us…

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• So anyway

  February 6, 2023

  I'm getting so frustrated with literally everything. Even writing kinda just meh... I can feel depression but i refuse to let it get to me again. I refuse to be committed again.  I have children that need me but it seems like the only way i will be able to see through to the other…

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