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April 21, 2021
Ya, he and i got into it, again. What else is new? To catch up now, he created a fake profile to make me believe hes w someone else. And i said some things to stir him. Just told him that facts are, men want me and not much has changed from 15 years ago,…
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  • Ugh
    April 19, 2021
    I was texting t and accidentally sent it to him. Now i fucked it all up, and continued to text him like 10 in a row. I was so quiet all day. Nothing but drama from me, right? We will see. He's busy w someone else, i am sure. Let him go, dammit. Today was…
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  • How can we
    April 19, 2021
    Yesterday was a disaster. After being disappointed by the circle, came home and relaxed a bit. I suggested that he come over, and he agreed, however he failed to tell me he was "working ".  Not sure whether i can believe it or not, but it is what it is. 930, he got home. I…
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  • More thoughts
    April 18, 2021
    He has jealousy issues, but he's telling other chicks online how beautiful they are. And they are half his age. Lets be real about this, tho. They don't know him, or me. They don't know any better. Me, i do. Thats why it hurts. So, again, resisting urge to gm text him. If I'm on…
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  • Trust and jealousy
    April 18, 2021
    Issues He said he had them. Anyway, no good night text for me, and i won't text him, either. Going to the circle, in a few hours. Just gonna march forward w my day. Try not to focus on anything but me and my kids. Can't sleep. Neighbors wide awake. I hear them laughing.  I…
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  • Craziness
    April 16, 2021
    Is mania. Its just hard to separate it all. Like if this was common occurrence,  i could be more certain,  the only occurrence is his ghosting me. I said all this to his sister as it was going on, but i really believe his support system just isn't that strong. Hes slowly coming around.  I…
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  • Oh boy
    April 16, 2021
    So last night he sent me a good night text. I was feeling weak thus morning because as I've said, i hate games, and just as i was getting weak and trying to distract, he sent a good morning text to me. So, i get his whole jealousy thing. He is a very jealous man,…
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  • So i didn’t
    April 15, 2021
    But he did text me and tell me he doesn't like how he feels because it makes him jealous rage and he's no good to anyone, then. I told him i loved him. What else can i say or do? I'm chasing this asshole, he needs to chase me. So, timer restarts at 8pm. Tomorrow…
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  • Back to this game
    April 15, 2021
    Do not text him. I said enough. Do not text him. 3 days. 10am, today. He said he works tomorrow. So, tonight is definitely out. Do not text him. Don't do it, girl.... Nope nope nope. I can play. I have to play. This is dumb. So dumb. He loves me. He loves me not....…
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  • Hes worried
    April 15, 2021
    More about what others will think, than what i actually do. I need to keep my head on with this. I know he's having psychosis. He knows better. Hes convinced right now the love marks on my shoulders were from another man. He gets high a lot and forgets lots of things he's done and…
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