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Silence

July 21, 2021
So, i know he was homeless,  he lived w his sister, back to homeless again... and now hes living w her. Doing and saying all the same stuff he did w me. Whatever. I cry when my daughter talks about him, which is often but I'm really trying to get over it. Trauma. Narcissistic asshole.…
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  • Still nothing
    July 7, 2021
    I did well w my writing and getting rid of his stuff and closure. He still hasn't bothered. We wont see him for the dna test because i don't want my daughter to see him. She finally stopped talking about him constantly but she still is. Im on vacation.  Going home tomorrow...
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  • Trying
    June 21, 2021
    I still cry every day, but its not for anything other than my 4 year old missing her father. I guess I mean thats what usually starts it. I took them on vacation.  Im taking them, again. And again. I need distraction and i need to get out of PA. Looking for a beach. Looking…
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  • Insanity
    May 25, 2021
    I honestly have no idea whats going on, anymore.  I realize i am addicted to him. I keep reaching out to a silent grave. I torture myself. I know. I miss him, but differently.  I don't want him home. I want him. But not how he acts. I want to see him. I wanted to…
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  • I think…
    May 24, 2021
    He moved back home. All them kids? His daughter, his grandson who won't stop talking about lilly. And they don't validate him. They were on my side idk anymore
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  • Still nothing
    May 20, 2021
    I'm getting mad about it, too. Again, as long as ge has validation,  he will never need or want, me. And i am so relieved that i don't follow the crowd. I still don't know who she is, exactly. But i have suspicions and if its her, it won't last long.  
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  • I think
    May 13, 2021
    Its just really hard because ghosting me and our child is horrible communication and it brings out abandonment issues and high anxiety in me. I think I'm just not liking the ending because it didn't have to be this way. He won't respond, he won't answer but he will post pictures of her online, wi...
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  • So sick
    May 11, 2021
    I am really done with him. He is with someone else and he's using here to try to get me jealous. But sadly, I am not jealous, just mad at the disrespect And its Brooke. Welcome to the club, lady. Have a seat, he already told you I was psycho and you blocked me already…
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  • Pulling this
    May 8, 2021
    I am waiting for the hoovering stage. I got a tattoo, today of honeysuckles. I like it buuut one of the buds doesn't look right. Its okay, tho. Its an off the shoulder piece onto my arm. I like it. I may get another when taxes come to me. Been waiting too long and it…
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  • Cps
    May 7, 2021
    Well, they think they won. Tammy, and her entourage called cps on me with concerns for my well being, excessive drinking and concerned about when my kid was to the dr and dentist. I literally drink like 4 times a year. That was from my fb post that i went out w bill. I knew…
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