I haven’t been feeling well

Dear Jesus,

maybe today was too much stimulation but I haven’t been feeling well. When I get my parents I never sit down. I’m asked a lot of questions, and there’s constant talking. I get anxious and stressed and I ended up with chest pains and a headache.

i had a wonderful time with my parents though. We saw Jurassic World and all I could think was….man, I wish I could be in a film like that! Her role was so amazing.

afterwards I went to an electronic store to learn more about my computer. I found a usb c-port and opted to buy a cheaper one from EBay.  I was able to wash my clothes from my parents house and even wrote a letter to the criminal court in LA to request my court documents. Whatever my enemies meant for harm, actually helped me go in the direction of getting my record expunged.

my dad made me the BIGGEST steak with baked potatoes. My mom made me a healthy meal to enjoy later during the week. My parents love me so much. They laid hands on me during prayer about my chest pains. I never had them until I worked with those hateful women. But I’m beginning to feel stronger. I learned what to do and what not to do.

there’s a FashionNova model who is allll done up. She’s considered very pretty but I personally only see lots of plastic surgery. To me she looks, insanely unreal. However, she barely speaks. Like never. I think this poor girl has been traumatized before and chooses to barely speak. I think it’s the side effect of being treated poorly like I was. It’s the reason I wear masks, getting eyeglasses (even though I don’t need them) and doing anything to not draw attention to myself. It’s a form of protection.

im getting so sleepy. I’m so upset too. The leaks in my a/c panel are worsening. I now have four Tupperware bowls lined up to catch the water from above.

I have so much to tell you…like choosing between Anabel and a new acting class. I will finish chatting with you when I’m awake and alert. Amen