A Renewed Focus
I meant to write more than I have, but I’ve been applying myself at work just a little bit more in these last few weeks. I’ve been getting things done, this time at an improved and accelerated rate than earlier in the year. It helps that I’ve been more focused on me and my work and it definitely helps that I’ve distanced myself from people, especially those who proved to be distractions and otherwise, wastes of my time, effort, and energy. It seems that I have a renewed focus on getting my reports done and again, it shows. I met with management earlier in the week and I was able to again stave off their scrutiny for at least another month. My efforts have not gone unnoticed.
So, yes, work is work and my productivity has improved. I’m still putting in my overtime hours to get my work done and I’m content with everything that I’m doing. It truly is all in a day’s work.
In maintaining a standoffish presentation at work, I have reverted to some of my old ways, from many years ago. It’s a really simple mentality. I maintain this persistent look of disgust and disdain on my face. People see it. They keep their distance from me and they walk away. It works extremely well and because it works as well as it does, I am encouraged to keep on doing it. Only those who know me will break through that façade and talk to me like nothing is wrong. Those are the people I would prefer to engage with. Everyone else, I couldn’t care less about.
This all sounds so antagonistic, but I love that it works and it allows me to remain focused on the work that I have to do. People around me and my cubicle want to socialize, waste time, and otherwise avoid doing their work. Those are the mother fuckers I need to tune out and avoid. I’m going to do what I need to do to keep that distance from them and maintain my productivity.
I am not looking to build upon my small and established social circle at work. I made that mistake a couple of years ago and I’m not looking to make that mistake again. I’m not social and I don’t want to be. Work is where I make my money. It’s not where I go to make friends or create social connections. Everyone outside of my social circle at work can kiss my ass. They are not worth my time. I’m all about doing my job and collecting a paycheck. Anything else in that office isn’t important.
I told this to someone recently and I still believe it:
The job isn’t difficult. It’s working with morons that has proven to be the challenge.
Work isn’t and has never been the problem. It’s the people that make it suck sometimes.