Sober October

Dear Jesus, I put my prayer on the TBN prayer page. When I pressed the submit button I heard a disctinct knock on the door. It is 4:47 am now… all of this happened on or around 4:44am…. WHAT DIED THIS MEAN? The prayer, the knlocking, the time?….

im tired. I smoked my last bit of weed I hope. I say I hope because I don’t know how I’m going to feel about not smoking on a Friday. To going home after Anabel and working on myself for a change and not go through the motions of smoking and blurring it to the next day… what will I do with my time? Catch up on rest… right now I’m EXHAUSTED ! I stayed out til 10pm went to bed at 11pm woke up at 3 and it’s already 5…I feel so tired … getting not even a full 6 hours of rest. I want to be ok… but I’m not. I’m upset.

i just want 4 days a week. Please help me with this! By some miracle, please let this happen. In the meantime, I’ll do the best job possible. And I need to just fast today… water only. But I just have my water bottles. I would need to buy some water but I don’t want to do that. Ugh..

im so aggravated. About just everything … mostly knowing I have to set my alarm and will only get one more hour if sleeker go