Ahhhhh work tomorrow

Dear Jesus,

I feel sad about having to go to work in the morning. I’m tempted to get a Starbucks or McDonald’s to make it feel a little easier—Starbucks would be better, but I’ll see. I might just make my own since I bought that expensive organic milk and the Folgers instant coffee. Maybe I’ll make an apple cider tea tomorrow too. I also need to start packing my vitamins again—maybe I’ll do that in the morning.

Tomorrow, I need to put my mattress against the wall and move my stool and tray out of the living room. My apartment is dirty, and I want to start cleaning it little by little every day. Tomorrow I’ll start with my TV, dresser drawer, and DVD shelf. I really hope everything works out for my apartment. Actually, I should pray about this: Jesus, please let the manager make sure my carpets get cleaned thoroughly. And please let me have favor with getting my tub resurfaced as well.

After work tomorrow, I might need to go to Walmart to pay my rent. I may get a manicure and pedicure afterwards too. I should probably stop home first to check my carpets and schedule the tub resurfacing before running the rest of my errands. So yes—tomorrow: work, apartment, bathe, leasing office, tub resurfacing appointment, rent, mani/pedi, then another bath and a salad for dinner. We’ll see how it goes. I’m really trying to eat better. I even packed healthy food and a small treat for lunch—half a falafel.

Now I’m in bed. I set my alarm for five minutes before 6 a.m. If I take my sleep meds now, I’ll get a good six hours, so I’m going to do that.

My new friend Scott—who’s been obsessed with me—found out about my past. Now I don’t think I can hang out with him anymore. Him coming over today might have been a bit of a hindrance, but honestly I feel better. While he was here, I packed my lunch and bag, steamed my clothes, and even prepped my morning blunt. So I don’t regret him coming over…but it will probably be the last time.

I’m ready for bed. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me, Father. I love you. Amen.