Finally letting it go.

I stood there for so long and was always so worried about the wrong things. Doing the same thing everything day. There was never any change. Dealing with the same people and the same drama. I was so worked up over that I forgot about the good things that were standing right there in front of me. I lost so much of who I was and I wasn’t sure how to get any of it back. I held on to the past because I was scared to face the present and what was yet to come. I hide away and wouldn’t allow my self to let go. Making my self sick and unhappy I lost sight of so many things.

Then one day I woke up and realized the past that I held onto so tight, was the reason I was falling so low. Soon I started to let go of each thing. Little by little I let it slip between my finger and I never fought to get it back. I stopped talking to most that just held me back. Soon I’ll be moving out and working. Then high school will be over and I’ll be driving and going to college. There won’t be anytime for the little kid stuff. Eight-teen I’ll be an adult and doing things for me.

I had to learn to let go of those I loved so much and cared for. I had to let go and get over the hurt to realize I was hurting for nothing. With a smile on my face now, I don’t look back on those times where it just didn’t seem right to me. I turn to the one who makes my world and makes everything worth it and he takes me in his arms and everything I need is right there. With my family on my side and falling back into place. What more could I ask for?