Should I Post On FB? Then Go Airplane Mode?

Feelin super down… Lookin for an objective viewpoint to confirm or disprove my subjective feelz….

My mom died in February. Last few times I spoke on the phone to one (of FOUR) of my aunts (mom’s sisters), I expressed how much it stresses me out to use the phone, especially to call out. This was NOT brand new info to her. I told her she could call me every day if she wanted and I would answer but I just cant deal with the stress/guilt of calling her now, that I know it’s “stupid” and that I need to work on it but I just cant work on it AND grieve right now.

That convo was about 2wks before I had to call 911 and go to hospital by ambulance. She happened to call again just after I got home from hospital. I was sleeping so my husband answered my cellphone and relayed what I’d just been through and that I was ok.
That was September 9th. I have not heard from her since.

Canadian Thanksgiving is this coming Sunday October 12 – more specifically, it’s my first Thanksgiving without my mom.
None of my aunts, uncles or cousins have called, emailed or texted to see what Im doing for the holiday let alone invite me anywhere. Traditionally, it probably would be a 20+ person gathering that I probably would have hosted here at my house.

#support #advice