closure

i ask you about your day, and somehow that offends you, but otherwise you are calm. so calm and collected, like nothing breaks you. and maybe that’s what breaks me, because there will be no closure. not for me anyway.

you were diagnosed with ADHD back more than 5 years ago, but no one ever told us anything, nothing. and maybe this is just me still trying to understand, still chasing a why but that does not exist.

i was too busy working, too busy taking care of everything, of you, of the mess, and i missed it… i missed all the signs…

and now i am tired. just tired. not angry, not sad , just done with it, and the weight, and the turning wheels of all the drama.

i just want to let it go. not with peace. not with answers. just let it go, without closure.

and that is it.
thats how its going to be.