my thoughts are as volatile as alcohol
and so is my existence
the day I go under there wont even be
a ripple on the pond to remind you of me

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April 26, 2024
There is something I want to say, not now, not today... I just feel so far away, drifting of. The reoccurring memory of my youth, sun setting in the laboratory of my father, the afternoon sun reflecting of the flasks... Could my life have been better? I miss the life I had.
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    February 23, 2024
    I miss you terribly, babba.  My heart longs for you!
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    February 9, 2024
    A somber veil shrouds my heart, because for you my friend, our journey together ends here today. My heat is broken. You embraced life with such joy that I wanted nothing more than for you than to have it. Lying quietly there on the back seat now, motionless, our final trip together. Always fearfu...
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  • Getting there
    January 12, 2024
    Have not quit my job yet, still in negotiations. I am sad to have disappointed you, but even more so, to have disappointed myself :-(. But today, I feel so good! It feels like, it feels like I am floating on top of a little tiny soft white cloud... It just feels so so incredibly…
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  • A note to myself
    January 2, 2024
    This is 2024. It will be a good year. I am going to quit my job, and next time I am here, I will tell you that! Throwing all caution to the wind, hell yeah, Fuck all!!! This is 2024!!!!!
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  • Dislectics untie
    November 17, 2023
    I am dislectic. Dislectics unite. Had no lerning disabilty so I flew under the radar for quite some time, I guess. But the signs are  so overwelming, cant belive, I ignored them for so long. There was these milion sighns showing it.
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  • New
    September 8, 2023
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    August 11, 2023
    Oppenheimer: 8 Barbie: 10!!!   Barbenheimer: Hell Yeah!
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    June 9, 2023
    Mushroom Fridays... Maybe I should leave it at that... Just that,. A place holder in  my mind to the people I have the privilege that they choose to share their lives with me. (and the new ones I meat along the way 😉) Maybe I should eat more mushrooms now 🙂    
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  • wat is art?
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    i think... an artist expresses culture...
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