Recent Entries

• Gravity

  January 30, 2026

  At first the quiet was spacious. Then it became deep. I can feel how easily depth turns into an abyss. The quiet still nourishes me, but it has begun to develop gravity. I dont want to lose the quiet. I just dont want it to claim me. Grace I tried calling you earlier tonight, no…

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• Castle Rosso

  January 16, 2026

  Tonight I had my first official friend over for dinner in my house. It is a friend I really love. We spoke about our struggles in life. I appreciate him. I have written about him before, "Moonlight Sonata". Some time ago I told myself I want at least two moments a month like this. Dinner.…

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• Thank You!

  January 11, 2026

  I copied all my entries, just in case. You never really know. I just want to say thank you, Open Diary. You were here for me when I needed somewhere to put my thoughts, somewhere to exist without explaining myself. That mattered more than I realized at the time. I guess everything comes to an&hel...

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• Mudfish Queen

  November 21, 2025

  My house is empty. Probably the emptiest its been since the day I moved in. Im leaving for four weeks tomorrow, going home, and when I come back, everything will be different. New. I found someone to renovate the place. The chimney will be gone, new ceiling, new bathrooms. A small rebirth through...

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• She left

  October 27, 2025

  She left. She took everything. It was a good morning, our neighbour came to help, and I actually enjoyed her presence. With the others, we took little breaks, chatting about nothing in particular. Box by box, the room emptied out until only the echo of it remained. We had coffee, the four of us, ...

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• autumn

  October 5, 2025

  it hurts i have such a desperate longing for you to be happy as the seasons are changing and autumn leaves turn yellow once more i can’t help but feel a quiet desolation as we are drifting apart

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• D(eparture) Day

  October 4, 2025

  S gets her keys on Monday. She’s doing some painting, having someone put in a new floor. I won’t see any of it, I dont care. Ordered a new vacuum cleaner today.

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• closure

  September 26, 2025

  i ask you about your day, and somehow that offends you, but otherwise you are calm. so calm and collected, like nothing breaks you. and maybe that’s what breaks me, because there will be no closure. not for me anyway. you were diagnosed with ADHD back more than 5 years ago, but no one ever…

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• Forlorn or alone

  September 19, 2025

  Tik Tok 😥 This might just be one of the most influential times in my modern history. and I am trying to turn it into an unforgettable memory what better way than to tie it to music? After all, who can live without it? So heres my thank you, "Crescent City Collective"! Youve become the soundtrack&...

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