this is me throwing up.

okay. this is ridiculous.

I went to Target in fenton and it was actually really nice. After laying in the sun all day, there’s really nothing like a little retail therapy at Target. Seventy dollars later and I am now with a lady trimmer, two frozen pizzas, brownie mix, two shirts and a package of gummy candies….. and yes post break-up and pre-mensturation I will most definately polish of at least one of the frozen pizzas, perhaps the entire batch of brownies, the package of gumies, and then i will end up in tears when the shirt i try on needs to be a size bigger.

But that is neither here or there, because what is really going on is that i am bored and lonely. i know it is only natural to feel this way after ending a relationship, but why, why, why (!) do i want to vommit all over myself in the meantime?

….perhaps it has something to do with the fact that in a meer 4 days after we broke up, he is already dating someone else. How does that happen? I, for one, will never understand how quickly people can move on after ending a relationship. I find it very hurtful and very insulting. Perhaps i have a naive veiw of relationships. I take them seriously and I am (well at the time i am) qutie picky.

Did i mention he is at least 10, ten, T-E-N years older from this little pale, pesky, personality-less, awkward girl??