Recent Entries

• She left

  October 27, 2025

  She left. She took everything. It was a good morning, our neighbour came to help, and I actually enjoyed her presence. With the others, we took little breaks, chatting about nothing in particular. Box by box, the room emptied out until only the echo of it remained. We had coffee, the four of us, ...

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• autumn

  October 5, 2025

  it hurts i have such a desperate longing for you to be happy as the seasons are changing and autumn leaves turn yellow once more i can’t help but feel a quiet desolation as we are drifting apart

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• D(eparture) Day

  October 4, 2025

  S gets her keys on Monday. She’s doing some painting, having someone put in a new floor. I won’t see any of it, I dont care. Ordered a new vacuum cleaner today.

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• closure

  September 26, 2025

  i ask you about your day, and somehow that offends you, but otherwise you are calm. so calm and collected, like nothing breaks you. and maybe that’s what breaks me, because there will be no closure. not for me anyway. you were diagnosed with ADHD back more than 5 years ago, but no one ever…

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• Forlorn or alone

  September 19, 2025

  Tik Tok 😥 This might just be one of the most influential times in my modern history. and I am trying to turn it into an unforgettable memory what better way than to tie it to music? After all, who can live without it? So heres my thank you, "Crescent City Collective"! Youve become the soundtrack&...

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• August 22nd, 2025

  August 22, 2025

  Things with S are strange, shes distressed, but closed off to me. It leaves me standing in this weird space. Still under the same roof, but not really together anymore. I feel the coldness, and it stings... I’m sad, yes. But alongside that sadness there is a tug forward, this longing for the new ...

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• The Dove at the Corner

  August 15, 2025

  I had a dream last night. I walked alone, without Sproet. It felt wrong, like the world was coming apart at its seams. At the corner, I saw a dove. Its wings were torn off, Someone tore its wing off, It was just there, helpless with its wings on the ground My heart sank. I wanted…

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• Same Sky, Different Storm

  August 8, 2025

  S is moving out in October. Times creeping, and I dont know how I will feel when it hits. I tell myself I will be okay, but emotions are like the weather, hard to predict. Sunny one minute, then a thunderstorm rips through... Winters coming, and if I had to give you a forecast: its gonna…

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• Cutlery

  July 31, 2025

  Canada was fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. I stopped in Miami on the way bac. To see my best friend. We took his boat out, WOW. The water, the air,  the sea, everything was SO beautiful. S is moving out in October. The closure I couldnt get before, now slowly taking shape. It feels more real, mo...

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