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• Just saying

  October 29, 2025

  I was right. Just saying. He got his barbers license behind bars. Just found out now. Got nosy, so I found it. Anyway.  

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• Anxiety or Butterflies

  October 9, 2025

  Well, it's definitely anxiety. We're going to do this. I'm not gonna chase shit but it will happen. The discussion we had about that connection thing. Uggggh. Do the whatever. Life is too short, or some shit.    

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• So its fall

  September 25, 2025

  Its finally here. It rained all day. Im relaxing.  I should get some work done but I feel lazy. And still kinda sick. Meh.

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• Yesterday

  September 8, 2025

  We chatted til 1am. Today, nothing so far. I don't reach out. He keeps talking about having a crazy ass connection w me. He thinks we're it. *I* think he's right but also, Im not fucking hooking up. Hes in a relationship. Unless he's a jumper, and thats super unhealthy,  too. But I said in…

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• Some balls

  September 1, 2025

  To be spamming my journal w dome bullshit. Reported and deleted. Whatever. He called twice this evening. Is the end near? 😆 Whatever this is. It isn't going anywhere. Went swimming. My girl is sick. Poor kiddo.  

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• Sorry not sorry

  August 27, 2025

  He apologized for being so distant and said I didn't deserve that. I talked w him for awhile but I had to go and I guess he just fell asleep. Im still not feeling the greatest. I need a vacation.    

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• Musikfest

  August 11, 2025

  Well. I hated taking him with.  I was miserable the entire time because literally all he did was complain. I just give up completely on the guy. Bought a jeep. Hes trying to hold it over my head. Nope nope nope There's only so much I can take and I am done So no, I…

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• Silence and Sleep

  August 4, 2025

  Its so quiet and I'm enjoying it. Last night he said hi. I said hey a half hour later and he swiped me away without even reading it. Its always at like 430am, anyway. I'm over it. And now, I look at him and kinda MEH. Maybe twenty years ago, we'd have had a spark,…

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• Well

  July 29, 2025

  He said hi a week ago. I said hi back about ten minutes later and since then, nothing. Weird. He was a cop. Playing these silly games with me. Like I said, I am done w the games. I deserve more. This week my daughter has been getting worse and worse with sleep. Tonight she…

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