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• I got hit today

  May 1, 2024

  I had smart ass remarks to say and didn't think his brother was picking him up. His brother normally comes into my driveway and has a truck. A CAR was sitting at my gate and wouldnt come in. What would anyone think? Your brother drives a truck not a car and why isnt he pulling…

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• im tired

  April 30, 2024

  Im....tired.....sometimes i think maybe sleeping and never waking up will be better than be here. This morning was the straw that broke the camels back. I'm so broken inside, and I can't voice it when I try to tell him how hes hurting me all he says is I DONT GIVE A FUCK. fuck your…

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• Good News

  April 29, 2024

  My mammogram was negative. My abdomen and pelvic area were clear except for a cyst on my ovary but not dangerous. I guess I could have used some good news. God is good all the time. I am so sleepy, Last night I dreamt of my other mama Kathy who passed away in December. I…

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• Lord Help Me!

  April 29, 2024

  This man drives me insane.  MY DAUGHTER STAYED up shes is 1 crying pretty much all night starting at 1 to like 5 am. This man doesnt work, I work at 830 am and I get my kids up for school and dressed and out the door by 730. He is laying there wide awake…

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• waiting…

  April 27, 2024

  I had a mammogram done Wednesday along with 2 pelvic and abdominal ultrasounds. They are checking for cancer. In my breast they found 2 lumps and none on the other side, in that breast I have been having pain. My pelvic area i have had pain so bad that it brings me to a hunched…

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• In another life

  April 26, 2024

  In another life, I would be sitting outside on my wrap around porch watching the kids play in the pool. I can hear the ocean waves off somewhere in the distance. I have been making good money since I got out of college when i was 21 so I'm only working part time hours now.…

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• appendix

  April 25, 2024

  on another note though today is my niece's birthday and last week she had her appendix taken out ...so i got play dough and made her an appendix and put it into flowers and told her here happy birthday you have your appendix back she laughed so hard her stomach hurt and she couldnt breathe.…

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• work

  April 25, 2024

  Its so hard to work even from home, theres no help with the babies. I have to keep getting up to check them and I get into trouble because I can't be away from my desk. He's here but in the restroom, so hows that help me. Hes on his phone he already started with…

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• spring clean

  April 22, 2024

  Its a spring clean kind of day, swept and mopped behind couches cleaned all teh cabinets the stove the fridge the restrooms.....either im manic or just bored, either way the stuff got down how has your day been?

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