3 more years and I'll be 30. Still trying to figure out where my place in the world is. Searching for a love that a lot of people don't believe/chose not to believe in anymore.
My entries will be about anything my heart can no longer accommodate or thoughts my mind will always choose to remember. An outlet for those unspoken words, hidden feelings and everything that's better left to unknown for some people in my life.

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007: Dear You

June 6, 2019
Dear You, It's been almost a year since we matched and started texting each other.  Almost a year since I last felt those butterflies in my stomach. It only took an instant and I already fell for you.  But it took time for me to forget you, to get rid of the feelings I instantly…
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Recent Entries

  • 006
    April 15, 2019
    I know that most of my entries here are about the guys I met these days.  I just realized that I’ve become a bit active of meeting people and exploring things I never thought I’d do in the past years. Last Thursday, I met a guy in a bar where me and a group of…
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  • 005: The end of something…
    February 26, 2019
    There is always this sadness one feels when vacation ends.  Especially when it's the last day, the last night, the last hours, and even to its last minutes. If we can only let time pause for a while.  If only we can stay a little bit longer. But like most things, there's an end to…
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  • 004
    February 25, 2019
    I feel like I'm desperately looking for love in the wrong directions and now I am starting to hate myself or hate what I am going through inside.  When you wanna go against the current but realize that it might throw you off or drown you, so you decide just go along with it. Although…
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  • 003: The guy friend
    February 20, 2019
    I find it a bit strange.  I was reading my previous entries when I come across "the nights with him" post.  I talked about the guy I met in Siargao, which eventually, now, I no longer have contact with. He blocked me, for reasons I don't even know, when I just greeted him on his…
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  • 002: Random
    February 17, 2019
    If you've met me few months ago, you would know that I am totally a different person as I am today.  Strange or I might just be overthinking. In the middle of last year, I have finally decided to open up my heart, meet people and everything else that I haven't thought of doing before. …
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  • 001: Lost it
    February 12, 2019
    I lost it.  I lost my game. If you have read one of my previous post, I said that I have my limitations when it comes to sex.  That even at the last minute, I could still say no. But eventually, I lost to one guy.  That feeling of losing something you've kept for the…
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  • The nights with him
    November 14, 2018
    It is crazy how something could happen in a snap. Like a roller coaster ride when one moment you are at the top then all of a sudden it is rushing down. Or when you did your first cliff jump, you were scared but you did it and sometimes, shit happens! The last 5 days…
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  • Life [is] changing.
    November 6, 2018
    Deciding to quit my job was one of the toughest decision that I have ever made since I hit adulthood.  I worked with that Company for almost six years, the pay sustained my lifestyle and it was my comfort zone.  The thought of not receiving a bi-monthly paycheck is frightening.  I had a lot of&he...
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  • Why am I not guilty?
    October 8, 2018
    Chastity.  Tell me about it! Because I struggle. We all struggle. For some of you who have read one of my past entry, I met a guy for a night and did some things with him. Consider it a one night stand without penetration! And to be honest, I feel guilty for not feeling guilty. …
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