Recent Entries

• Life [is] changing.

  November 6, 2018

  Deciding to quit my job was one of the toughest decision that I have ever made since I hit adulthood.  I worked with that Company for almost six years, the pay sustained my lifestyle and it was my comfort zone.  The thought of not receiving a bi-monthly paycheck is frightening.  I had a lot of&he...

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• Why am I not guilty?

  October 8, 2018

  Chastity.  Tell me about it! Because I struggle. We all struggle. For some of you who have read one of my past entry, I met a guy for a night and did some things with him. Consider it a one night stand without penetration! And to be honest, I feel guilty for not feeling guilty. …

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• Friend or foe

  October 2, 2018

  As you might have read in my previous entry, I met a guy for the first time, in an inappropriate setting, and was very aware of what was gonna happen that night. But again, there were limitations which he was cool enough to agree and never forced me with anything. We both had fun and…

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• Anxiety

  September 29, 2018

  The past two months have been a whirlwind of significant events in my life. A lot has happened that right now I still could not fully comprehend.  First is Andy,  second was me getting that job in the other side of the world, third is leaving the company I worked with for almost six years,…

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• One night only

  September 28, 2018

  While trying to forget Andy, I met another guy online. Honestly, I was attracted to his pictures. He looks really hot and works with the navy.  Though I know what he wants from the beginning but I continued to chat with him. I just thought it was funny to make him think like I'm game…

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• To the man from the other side

  September 16, 2018

  Andy's birthday is coming up and I thought of writing a poem for him as a gift. This is supposed to be a poem of goodbye and acceptance but still letting him know how I truly feel.  Though I had to send this to him in advance because, again, he said that we can't talk…

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• Just a thought

  September 14, 2018

  Is it possible for us to be good friends? I wonder. Yes, he have said some stuff before which made me hope for a future for us. But we all know that things changed when I found out that he actually in a relationship. Then there goes the block and unblock thing, and me trying…

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• Blocked – Unblocked

  September 12, 2018

  This has been a repeat story and the more he does it, the more that it doesn't affect me any longer.  Honestly, I don't know why he does it or why he's even exerting effort to block and unblock me when he can just leave me blocked. What game is he playing that I could…

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• Not meant to be

  September 9, 2018

  I cried. I'm not sure why, but again I realized something. Moments ago, I just texted with Andy. He was telling me about an arguement he had with his girlfriend. Yes, he tells me that now. And to be honest, it doesn't hurt. What actually hurts was the thought that I might have been set…

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