I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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Ain’t Nothing That a Beer Can’t Fix

September 16, 2021
I wonder if I could call up Thomas and ask him to change the lyrics to maybe...Ain't Nothing that a Mojito Can't Fix... Guess it doesn't fit in so well...but it suits me better as I seriously don't like Beer...ooh he could sing Ain't Nothing that a Storm Can't Fix...   You see Storm...Tripple Dis...
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    September 15, 2021
    (this is a long post and I couldn't complete the song as it is so long, but fuck I love it even though it is 2 songs kinda merged into one, so it took me forever to find the lyrics, but it spoke to me and has got me thinking)  Pull me close, break my…
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    September 14, 2021
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    September 14, 2021
    I just love this song...it gives me all the feels and makes my heart cry out...but since I am gonna start a new chapter in my life...It is spring, the weather is good, my mind and heart seems to be in a good place so no reason why not to work on myself and make…
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    September 8, 2021
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  • Proud of Myself
    September 8, 2021
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  • Nkosi Sikelel’ iAfrika…
    September 8, 2021
    Nkosi sikelel' iAfrika Maluphakanyisw' uphondo lwayo Please Lord....please this country! Not sure what glory needs to be lifted high, since right now, I kinda feel like South Africa is a real big let down...I suppose every country on this planet may be too...but there was a time when I used to be...
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  • Poison….Running Through My Veins
    September 7, 2021
    Your cruel device Your blood, like ice My husband and I are both very stubborn people. Well...him more than me. I can go a few days with ignoring him and just keeping our communication to a bare minimum...             "Supper is ready"    "Have a good day at work"  …
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