I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 109

May 18, 2025
Mazeltov to Yuval on coming 2nd in Eurovision 2025. I attempted to watch the show live on  last night...but only manged to get through 16 of the 26 finalist and honestly I only thought Yuval was worth being a finalist...no disrespect to the others but I didn't find them to be that good...other th...
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