I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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November 28, 2021
Yesterday he told me how he has been looking for a place to rent since the beginning of the year. I was a lil surprised by this as he never mentioned that... I mean I get why. In  the beginning of the year I was giving him time to look for a place, after the…
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Recent Entries

  • What Have I Done
    November 27, 2021
    I'm lyin' here on the floor where you left me I think I took too much I'm crying here, what have you done? I thought it would be fun I can't stay on your life support There's a shortage in the switch I can't stay on your morphine 'Cause it's making me itch I said…
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  • Life Sucks
    November 27, 2021
    ....well at least mine does. If I had to be honest....I'm not truly happy. I want to start over. I want to wake up one day and let it be 2006 all over again. Since it would be 2006, I would have had my accident and I would be stumbling through life....but at least I…
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  • Fed Up!!
    November 26, 2021
    He fetches me late from work...we had planned so much for tonight but because I was in a shit mood, I figured I may as well do a quick shop and then get home to clean the flat....like we also planned to do. I didn't think it would be 10pm and we would still be cleaning.…
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  • If I Could Turn Back Time…
    November 26, 2021
    Don't you ever wish that you could go back in time and acted differently? Said something instead of what you actually did say? When I look back at all the arguments I have had with my husband and with my dad and mothers and just in general...I realize just how imperfect I really am. I…
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  • Life is Wonderful
    November 25, 2021
    Listening to Spotify and a song just came up...Jason Mraz "Life is Wonderful" and as bizarre and contradicting the words may be, it is so true. I look at my family and how it is made up and how no matter what has happened through the years, they have stuck by me. Through all the…
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  • My Story…Pt 2 (kinda all over the place)
    November 24, 2021
    I am finishing up at work...and like normal listening to YouTube play... Busy bopping my head to Luke Bryan 'Play it Again' She was sittin' all alone over on the tailgate Tan legs swingin' by a Georgia plate Just those few lines take me back to Easter Holidays back in the 90's. I grew up…
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  • Crashing!
    November 23, 2021
    I see it happening again...well not exactly, but this is how it started. How the anxiety attacks started, which led me to a Clinic... Round about this time last year I found out my husband was having an affair. Okay he wasn't really having an affair but in my eyes it was pretty close. speaking&he...
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  • Out Here on My Own
    November 22, 2021
    Sometimes I wonder where I've been, Who I am, Do I fit in. The life that I am living right now is not the life that the younger me thought I would be living. I look at myself now, and yes the characteristics and the person I see is the true me, but often I…
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  • Is it wrong?
    November 20, 2021
    Things sure have gotten real tough.  And I know I could make things a lil easier, this would entail me dipping into my savings or asking my dad for financial help, but I am wanting to suck this up and just deal with it. Petrol is real low. There isn't much to eat. Can't really…
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