I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 36

May 19, 2022
Last night was  Many of us gathered together to remember and celebrate this holiday. Until last night I was not really aware of the holiday, so it was something new for me. There are many reasons for Lag B'Omer... on this day, the 33rd day of the Omer, there are many Jewish Weddings, Jewish Boy's...
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