I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

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אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 90

April 19, 2024
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