I am married and still trying to figure life out. I need to vent and get many things off my chest. I have been through a lot and even though I have lots of support there are still many things I feel I cannot share and things I need to get off my chest without being judged directly.

Latest Entry

Recent Entries

  • Sugar is a DRUG!
    July 27, 2023
    I always pride myself into thinking I am not addicted to any recreational drugs or alcohol and have the power and character to say no to things that I know that are not good for me. But it has come to my attention that I am a serious sugar addict. I cannot get enough of…
    Continue Reading...
  • I am dissappointed with myself
    July 25, 2023
    Oaky so I have lost a lot of weight since I had the operation, but I should have lost more. This woman who I became Facebook friends with after I had the op, she had it a few days after me, showed a picture on Facebook of how much weight she has lost. She says…
    Continue Reading...
  • Putting Words into Actions!
    July 13, 2023
    I am all talk talk talk and procrastinate when it comes to doing things. For months I have been looking at putting new Aluminum Windows in my flat. I have spoken to my father, and he has tried to get me to go the cheaper way and back door, but I know from when he…
    Continue Reading...
  • I Just Can’t!!!!
    June 30, 2023
    Today was a great day with my bio mom and nephew. Went for a drive and watched some tv, chatted, went to the park... Throughout the day my husband would play with my nephew and joke around with him. They played and joked around. Often I found myself thinking about what a wonderful father he would...
    Continue Reading...
  • I Don’t Love Myself Enough…
    June 29, 2023
    Lately I have been reading a lot of books of wives having affairs and the one book that I loved was the one where she left her husband for the other guy. I don’t want to cheat on my husband but I just wish that he would stop making me feel like shit for when…
    Continue Reading...
  • Last Night! No This Morning!
    June 19, 2023
     deprive (a man) of his male role or identity. I think that is what happened last night. I mean it is no excuse and it isn't my fault. Since my mother-in-law sent my husband the  message, asking him to buy them electricity my husband and I have been at war! I barely slept last night! He…
    Continue Reading...
  • אני קושית יפה/I’m a Cute Black Girl Pg 83
    June 19, 2023
    בּרוּךְ אַתָּה יְיָ אֱלהֵינוּ מֶלֶךְ הָעוֹלָם אֲשֶׁר קִדְשָׁנוּ בּמִצְוֹתָיו וְצִוָנוּ עַל הַטְבִילָה Right now a group of us have formed a group to help build a Mikveh for our shul. Since the Orthodox Shul doesn't recognize the Progressive Movement, our congregation has never been allowed to the...
    Continue Reading...
  • Week 1: Day 5 – 7 of 90
    June 18, 2023
    So I listened to my body the past 3 days and haven't gone to gym. I have been relaxing and just living a lil. My step counts have been 5000+ so that is good. This morning I put on a dress that I bough last year and used to wear as a top with a…
    Continue Reading...
  • Punching Bag!
    June 18, 2023
       That is what I feel like when my husband has been...  That is what I feel like when my husband's  That is what I feel like when my husband  Today we had a lazy day, so after I did the things I had to do I lay in bed next to him...he received a…
    Continue Reading...

Search Entries

  • Use dropdowns or search terms above to find entries.

Chapters