Older than I used to be. Online diaries since '00.
Love books, indie music & drawing.
But also other shit like playing games on my phone and Netflix.
Recovering from pretensions. See above.

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trivialities

November 21, 2023
Awaiting sleep, my body exhausted. My brain - not so much. Limbs weak and shaky from fighting an infection; from five days of too many meds; from intimacy; from a steroid shot in the ass; from relief. We leave tomorrow, or we don't, and I can see the benefits of both. Off again to lose…
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