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• corners & edges

  March 14, 2024

  I’ve been thinking about lines lately. A couple of weeks ago he told me a story about a woman, something truly abhorrent that I won’t repeat here. We both mourned her, this stranger, who suffered some of the worst things imaginable. In return, I told him about a friend living overseas. She is str...

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• time loop

  February 27, 2024

  I had one of those indescrible moments today, where the curtain slides aside and you feel like you’re seeing something you shouldn’t. I’m chalking it up to a conflux of influences, not the least of which is that I’m still a little high, the result of consuming an edible at 5 am (pain). Emotionall...

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• little sisters, kidnappers, sleep demons

  February 21, 2024

  At night I lie in bed, gazing out the window into our small backyard – the scattered remnants of last spring’s garden, various (long dead) potted plants, and the large cypress tree in the southeast corner. Regardless of the hour, the slice of sky I can see never fully darkens but instead remains ...

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• sustenance

  February 16, 2024

  Climax never fully materializing, headache blooming at the back of my skull, and the distinct feeling that I was unwell without any idea as to why. Unsettled and in pain. He was initially apologetic but also soon asleep. Left once again, alone with my thoughts - all the things that sneak up at 3 ...

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• untethered

  January 8, 2024

  The brain, which existed almost completely devoid of creativity throughout November and December, is now in recovery mode. The first week or two of this always feels a bit manic - a flood of ideas and desires that need guidance and pruning. All of it is a means of feeling more truly like myself; ...

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• 2023 Music

  January 6, 2024

  Early last year I challenged myself to seek out more new music, both from new-to-me artists as well as from artists I already know. The songs and albums listed are in no particular order. I will say that my three favorite albums this 2023 were Feeble Little Horse – Girl with Fish, Angelo De Augus...

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• january

  January 5, 2024

  I stay in bed when I should be getting up, getting ready for work. Ten minutes. Another fifteen. An hour in total. I am, officially, five minutes into the start of my workday before I even push up out of bed. Eventually, I put on my clothes - a casual dress, cardigan, and flats -…

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• no good, very bad

  January 1, 2024

  Years and years ago, when we were newlyweds, we had a tight knit group of friends with whom we spent most of our free time. We got together on Sunday evenings to make dinner, drink, and visit. Threw a big party every couple of months. And, of course, we would all spend NYE together. Every…

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• there are 1440 minutes in a day

  December 28, 2023

  (Originally posted on 12/1) Last night Jo was listening to snippets of lost media songs, immersed in the bittersweet experience of enjoying a creation that has already begun to disappear with time. We discussed it for a bit. Talked about how all media will eventually become lost media. About how ...

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