Andy

I just feel like. Once I let myself be with someone else. Andy and I are over. forever.
It draws a line, it closes a door, it ends us.
And I don’t want that.
I want there to be that little chance of us. as unrealistic as it may be. I want to hold on.

I’m okay with us not being together right now.
But I am not okay with there not being a chance of us ever being together.

And I just feel like if I am with someone else, why would he want me back?
I’m not that great that he would fight for me or wait for me.

FUCKKK

Just. get. over. him. already!
He’s in fucking Texas.
Why can’t I get it through my head that this is it.
It’s already over. There’s nothing to hold on to.