2018 (Daily)

One of the worst things about my anxiety and finding out devestating news is that I tend to shut down and go inside myself, and avoid others.  That's been my life for the last two days. I've been online, and talked to people there, but the very idea of dealing with other people while I…

Tomorrow Daddy C begins chemotherapy.  I am having a lot of thoughts about it.  Will he look different  as a result of the chemo? They are using a drug that supposedly doesn't cause hair loss,  but there is no promise of other side effects I've heard of not showing up. Got paid for two of…

So they've done some testing on his cancer, and it is in Stage 2. It is incurable, but it is manageable.  He had a PET scan on Thursday, and a  bone marrow biopsy today. The next few weeks are going to be hectic, and uncertain. Life has been chaotic the last few days, but we…

The word Cancer has always been scary to me. I've lost a lot of family to it.  Most of these were extended family.  But now.  Now its in my immediate  family.  My stepfather...  no.  My Dad  has recently been diagnosed with mantle cell lymphoma.   We don't know what the steps  are next.  He sees ...

Musings. I have lots of them. I don't know exactly where to begin, and I can't promise any of them are going to make sense. But I feel like I need to make a record. Two days ago, my mother informed me that the doctors found that my stepfather's got a swollen lymph node on his…

I am embarking on my second week of dog sitting. I am wrapping up one job today, and am continuing my second job. The first job has been great. It's basically just letting the dogs out and keeping them company during the day until about 5:30. (I've been leaving a little after 5 because my…

Yesterday started my 2 weeks of dog sitting. I'm so excited because this means $$.  With me having overpaid on my bills this month,  I'm already down to 14.00 for the month.  All but 80.00 of what I'm earning is going straight into the bank because I need to be able to cover the last…

I haven't been on here in a while. There's a good reason for it. I've been dealing with a lot of crap both physically and emotionally.  Physically, I am struggling so much with this whole Diabetes things. From trying to navigate how to use the meter and strips to having to start my log all…

Tonight was Mom's birthday so we went to Hooters. I know, I know. Why would anyone want to go to Hooters? Well, in the early and late 90s, Mom was in a Nascar themed bowling league and a lot of the weekends were spent at Hooters watching said races.  So my brothers and I ended…

Hi guys. Been sitting on this for a bit, so I thought I'd give everyone the update. I had the big appointment with my incompetent doctors on Friday.  They're still not willing to admit that I'm Diabetic, but my mother took a look at the blood test results and the results from the Blood Glucose&he...